Zecca's Prerogative

23 BELOVED BROTHER!

2012-01-28T02:48:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY BELOVED BROTHER

MOHD KHALID KAMAR

Today, I make a special wish for you. May our bond grow a hundred times stronger, a hundred times more transparent and a hundred times more reliable. Wishing you a Happy Birthday. Great times lie ahead of you!

Taken in Leeds, UK. He just look like me! OMG

Taken in Malaysia

RCSI Acoustic Night 2011 (Dublin, Ireland)

Dikir barat. RCSI's night! Represent for Malaysia

I LOVE YOU ABOY! I MISS YOU TOO!

Do come back ASAP!

I'm alone here

T_T

4 STEPS TO DO/SEE BEFORE MARRIAGE

2012-01-25T17:01:00.010+08:00

1. Istisharah (Ask your close family members and close friends whether the partner is ok or not. Is it good or bad for you)

2. Istikharah (Ask Allah whether the partner is the right one. If not, let the partner go easily from your life and you wont face those great heartbroken)

3. During the process of preparing the ceremony, is there any barriers or obstacles that comes to you. How great it is? (For example: all the dewan is fully-booked. Or you got a big fight with partner - this one is petunjuk from HIM whether you should marry your partner or not)

4. Tawakal & Doa (If the thing goes so smooth, then he/she is you best partner dunia dan akhirah)

-InshaAllah-

SACRIFICE FOR LOVE

2012-01-24T14:46:00.005+08:00

This morning I was talking to my mom. She said something that I totally tak boleh defend myself hahaha. Suddenly she compared herself with her friends. "Semalam mama went to my school reunion, almost semua orang dah ada grandchilds" hahahaha I was like errrkkkk apakah topik dia kali ini. Where should I run? Dapur? My bedroom? Aduuuhhhh what kind of reason should I tell her if I suddenly go to the kitchen? hahaha ok lets listen her first. Give her chance to express. Well she said "Sometimes in your love life, kita kena sacrifice Ika. Like me myself, I was so in love with Gilbert but too much of obstacles and barriers mama dah faced but because I love my late dad a lot I let Gilbert go and get married to your father whom I only knew him about 3 months time. You think I wasn't sad at that time? But nak buat macam mana we're not meant to be together"... Hurmmm macam dah more than 100 times dengar the same story. hahaha well tetiba she asked "For how long are you gonna wait for daus? kena ingat ika, you're older than him. Laki kahwin lambat tak apa. Lagi lambat lagi saham diorang tinggi. Perempuan lain. Sometimes you have to think about yourself jugak. Jangan melulu je sebab cinta." Ok sumpah terdiam. Tak tahu nak cakap apa. "Tak apa la ma, ada jodoh tu ada la. Biar Ika buat istiqarah dulu. Don't worry, my time will come. Dengan siapa? Ika tak tahu. But insyaAllah I'll give you your grandchild soon"

TRUE LOVE 'REQUIRES' SACRIFICE???

Seriously, marriage is really freaking me out! Mari menyedapkan hati dengan kata-kata azimat dibawah ini.

"Wahai bakal suamiku yang aku tidak pernah ketahui siapa, Jika namamu yang tertulis di Lauhul Mahfudz untukku, Nescaya rasa cinta itu akan Allah tanamkan dalam diri kita, Tugasku bukan mencari dirimu tetapi mempersolehahkan diriku, Wahai seseorang yang telah tertulis di Lauhul Mahfudzku, Imamku dan ayah kepada anak-anakku, engkaulah yang akan membersamai perjalananku.. Aku percaya engkau sedang memperbaiki dirimu, memantaskan dirimu untuk jadi imam bagi tulang rusukmu, dan khas buah hatimu kelak. Aku pasti menunggu insan sepertimu."

ALONE = LONELY (NO!)

2012-01-21T03:35:00.004+08:00

Everyone should have their time away. Away from everything, everyone, everywhere. I mean ALONE. Don't worry, ALONE doesn't mean that you're LONELY. It just that you want to spend your precious time alone. Maybe you want to create some awesome ideas, or maybe you want to reminiscing things or memories (think about the past of yours for enjoyment purposes), or maybe you want to heal your broken heart and your madness about something or someone or bla bla bla bla. hehehe. "ITS BETTER TO BE UNHAPPY ALONE RATHER THAN TO BE UNHAPPY WITH SOMEONE ELSE". And when the language has created the word LONELINESS, it is not always to express someone is sitting alone with their sad face and whatnots. LONELINESS is where and how people think that they are lonely. Doesn't mean that you're alone, you're lonely. Sometimes you're in a circle of friends but you still feel lonely. Why? That's all come from your brain, your heart and your soul. If one think they are lonely, so yes they are! Right now I am alone in my bedroom but I don't feel lonely at all. It just that I missed someone so bad and I am about to cry now because I think of it too much. TSK TSK.

"What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you"

WHEN SOMEONE HACKED MY FB ACC

2012-01-21T03:21:00.003+08:00

...and what I can do right now is reading online news, youtube-ing and blogging! duhhhhhh. Eff to you Mr Hacker who is trying to hack my FB account. You changed my eff-ing FB password as well as my email password. What do you want from me Mr Hacker! You seriously ruining my holidays! Arrgghhhh and I am eff-ing bad-mad-sad right now! Uwaaaaa

WORDS AND ACTIONS

2012-01-20T20:05:00.003+08:00

SOMETIMES WORDS CAN'T DESCRIBE HOW YOU FEEL

That is why I prefer keeping those words inside of me instead of telling it to a person that I wanted to tell. But I know if you keep it in you too long, you'll feel so upset and soon you'll be regreting for not telling that person what you feel. Owh no, I AM EGO! SUPER-EGO! I am more to action style. I let my action tells what I feel inside. And I know its hard for a person to guess and predict what's your actions are all about. Its ok as long as I am happy this way. Yes It is my way.

ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORD

ЛЮБОВЬ ДВУХ ПАРНЕЙ ОДНАЖДЫ

2012-01-20T17:10:00.001+08:00

Она действительно поймана в неумышленном, но мощном треугольнике любви.

Почему неправильно любить 2 мужчин в то же самое время?

DATUK S

2012-01-20T16:55:00.002+08:00

...And someone has asked my permission to send a ROMBONGAN MEMINANG soon for me and I was like errrrrrr are you sure Datuk? I think I'm so not ready for taking the steps towards the next level yet for I just knew you DATUK S!

Arggghhhhhhh *SPEECHLESS*

...And why me? (DANG!)

EFF SARCASM!

2012-01-19T19:06:00.004+08:00

I so hate sarcasm! Shit! I am living with it since I was young and yet until now. When you were young, you can’t say anything if the sarcasm came straight away from your own flesh and blood's mouth! I collected this stress of mine since forever. And living with people who loves giving that sarcasm actually can gain your stress level high up and this is not good at all. I am just like digging my own grave you know! Argghhh I thought when I am at this age, she won’t give such bitter sarcasm but my thought was totally wrong! Shit! Enough! I've taken a lot of bitter sarcasm already and this is too much and I can’t take it anymore. Last time, during my teen time, yes I cried a lot because I can’t take those words but I kept myself silence because of my RESPECTFUL. And hell no way for this time. Enough of tears and heartbreaks. And to all my friends who are reading this, please bear in mind, I SERIOUSLY HATE SARCASM and stop doing it to me or else you will find me resting in the hospital any soon.

ANOTHER FAVOURITE SONG!

2012-01-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

TELLING TRUTHS.TELLING LIES

2012-01-16T23:56:00.003+08:00

YES. I know that lying is a common wrong act. Most people would say that lying is always wrong except when there is a good reason for it which means that it is not always wrong! hahaha. I think telling lies is not always wrong. Let see what this scholar said about telling lie.

"Consider the case where telling a lie would mean that 10 other lies would not be told. If 10 lies are worse than 1 lie then it would seem to be a good thing to tell the first lie, but if lying is always wrong then it's wrong to tell the first lie..." (BOK, 1978)

Yes, lying is a kind of deception but for me it is not! NOT ALL FORMS OF DECEPTION ARE LIES OK! Well I know that lying diminish and destroy TRUST between human being. I do lying people. SERIOUSLY! But I do not enjoy telling lies because I know I hate people telling lies to me well I think if people telling lies to me and if it is not so obvious, then its ok. I dont mind. If let say a person telling lies and the truth never came out, then I think Im cool with it. But for me it is a lie that is not intended to harm the person being lied to. Indeed it's often intended to benefit them by making them feel good or preventing their feelings being hurt. Haish...

Actually I had such bad times everytime I'm telling the truth on certain events. Yes, truth hurts. Really hurts. Not hurting 2 or 3 people, but sometimes more than 10. And I feel so damn bad. Really bad. Not as bad as telling lies! Well both have its own consequences. Any how, I should face it (the consequences) either telling truths or telling lies. But at least you'll know if you tell lies, at the end of the day if the other party knows the real thing, he or she will really dissapointed on you (At least you'll ready for that because you know telling lies are bad). However, what if telling truths give both you and other party heart attack? You're trying to be nice by telling the truth but the end of the day, the other person feel so damn sad and out of sudden he or she doesn't wants to see you anymore. Is that FAIR? (you must be so damn regret when at first you wanted to tell lies but you know the consequences and then you tell truths but finally the things went very much horri-terri BLE)

If somebody gets joy from anything that he or she does, why do we have to spoil that by zealously stating the truth? I don't know what is on your mind my beloved readers but Whatever it is, I think I should stick to my own point...

"Telling lies and partial truths is SOMETIMES considered more efficient than just telling truths always"

3DAYS GIVEN

2012-01-13T15:23:00.003+08:00

3 days given? Yes. 3 days are given by my research's supervisor, Dr Makmor, to design my questionnairre for my research paper. Hahaha. And now i have no idea what to put on the questionnaire. Uwaaaa !!! This is so out of mind! I need someone to brainstorm with me on what should I put on it. 2 days left niiiii.....!!! Adoiyai.

MIDDLE NAME

2012-01-11T16:14:00.003+08:00

Hi, my name is NOOR ZALIKHA

My middle name is AGGRESSIVE!

TIDAK BERI PELUANG

2012-01-10T17:53:00.003+08:00

MANUSIA

Jika tidak diberikan peluang, mereka akan menjadi lebih memberontak.

Lebih-lebih lagi jika mereka tidak diberikan peluang untuk berubah ke arah kebaikan. Kenapa perlu untuk mengasingkan manusia yang jahil seperti itu terkapai-kapai tanpa 'guidance' dan akhirnya hati mereka akan terus tertutup untuk berubah ataupun mereka akan memberontak dengan cara mereka tersendiri?

Oleh itu, berikanlah mereka ini peluang untuk berubah ke arah kebaikan dan janganlah sesekali menjatuhkan air muka dan sekaligus menutup peluang mereka untuk melangkah setapak untuk kebaikan kerana semua manusia berhak untuk merasai kebahagian dunia akhirat.

TIDAK MEMBERITAHU SEPENUHNYA

2012-01-09T15:14:00.002+08:00

Adakah jika kita tidak memberitahu sesuatu perkara sepenuhnya kepada seseorang itu dianggap sebagai menipu?

Ketidaksampaian hati ini yang sering membuatkan diri ini tidak mampu untuk memberitahu sesuatu perkara itu dengan sepenuhnya kerana khuatiri akan membuatkan pihak tertentu terguris atau terasa hati. Mungkin menjaga hati dan perasaan orang yang disayangi adalah lebih penting dari menjaga hati dan perasaan sendiri. Dan ini sering mengakibatkan diri ini selalu tidak sihat pada segi fizikal secara amnya. Walhal secara khususnya ini adalah kesan dari kesihatan mental dan emosi yang sering terganggu apabila diri ini mendiamkan diri dari mengatakan sesuatu kepada pihak tersebut. Dan ini tidak bererti diri ini ingin menipu akan tetapi diri ini cuma tidak dapat meluahkan isi di dalam yang mungkin akan mengganggu gugat ketenteraman jika individu itu mendapat tahu hal yang sebenarnya.

AKU MEMANG NAK KAHWIN!

2012-01-05T17:49:00.002+08:00

Siapa cakap aku tak nak kahwin? Aku nak kahwin. Tahun ni dah masuk 26 tahun kot. Sepatotnya dah ada seorang anak kot! Calon? Ermmm memang aku tengah in relationship dengan si boyfriend. Tapi apakan daya kalau ada yang menghalang. Ye! Our relationship memang tersangat ok tapi bila sampai bab parents, omg aku nak mati sekarang! Punca sampai sekarang aku tak kahwin because of halangan dari his parents. Selama aku couple la kan, semua parents and big family si boyfriendsssss sume suka aku kot. But this one sangat pelik. Sumpah sangat sangat sangat pelik. Apa yang silap sekarang ni? Sebab aku pompuan dari KL? Uwaaaaaaaaa.... jahat sangat ke pompuan yang lahir dan besar kat KL ni??? Memang la aku ni a bit sosial tapi bukan So-SIAL. At least aku tak buat benda-benda macam minum, dadah, sex, bunuh orang, makan pil ntah pape. Cuma aku tak pakai tudung and a bit sexy je, Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Sedihnya kalau orang sanggup judge people macam tuuuuuuuu.... Sorry la sebab a bit harsh meluahkan kat sini. SAYA PMS! Sekian. T_T

SAMPAI BILA NAK MACAM NI

2012-01-05T12:49:00.003+08:00

Please la Zalikha. Arwah dah setahun lebih pergi. Tolong la berpijak atas bumi yang nyata. Yang pergi tu dah pasti takkan kembali. Tolong la recover hati dan jiwa tu. Tak payah nak sentiasa down je bila sorang-sorang. Kau kena kuat weh. Aduh ni sampai masters degree pon kau buat main-main. Pergi kerja pun nak taknak. Asyik nak terperap dalam bilik je. Nasib baik kau ni suka juga la keluar pergi sana sini kalau tak for sure dah masuk hospotal sakit jiwa. Ingat, doctor cakap kau punya migraine tu boleh attack brain kalau tak boleh kawal emosi tu. Kang tak pasal-pasal yang sihat ni yang akan jadi gila seumur hidup. Arrggghhhhhh kenapalah hidup ni ada je dugaan yang datang setiap masa. Macam dah tak larat dah nak tempuhi. Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! Ya Allah aku taknak minta apa-apa dari kau cuma aku nak sembahyang dengan sempurna, dapat sujud cium sejadah kat lantai, dah almost 8 years dah tak dapat sembahyang sesempurna seperti orang lainnnnnnnnnnnn. Sedih je bila tengok orang lain sembahyang sempurna. Allah dah tarik satu nikmat aku!!! Tapi aku tetap bersyukur sebab aku masih boleh berjalan. Tak nak pakai tongkat dah!!! Sakit sangat ketiak. Susah nak pergi tandas. Mandi pun susah. Nak naik turun tangga pun susah. Nak jalan dari satu tempat pun ambil masa pastu penat. Nak bersukan langsung tak boleh. uwaaaaaaa teringat zaman dulu-dulu masa 6 bulan bertongkat. Sangat sedih! Alhamdulillah masih bersyukur walaupun nikmat sembahyang sempurna tu diambil tapi aku masih boleh sembahyang duduk. masih dapat tengok alam yang cantik ni. Masih boleh berbicara dengan insan yang disayangi. hehehe dan yang penting ramai yang sayangkan kau Zalikha...!!!! Dah dah tak mau nak stress stress. Doakan je arwah kat alam sana. Tapi aku rinnnndddduuuuuuu :(

POLITICS.DEVELOPMENT.GOVERNANCE

2012-01-05T01:27:00.002+08:00

My toughest final exam questions ever! and.I.sent.rubbish! 5 questions answer 3 questions for only 2hours! WTF! TQ.

1. Discuss the nature of the links between the state and business within the models of the developmental state and neo-liberalism. Which model do you think best provides for the cultivation of entrepreneurial domestic capital?

2. Are horizontal inequalities-based policies an effective long term mechanism to resolve social inequalities and promote social cohesion in multi-ethnic countries?

3. Transnational theory serves to essentialized ethnic identity to such an extent that it misrepresents forms of enterprise development by ethnic groups. Discuss with reference to the Chinese in Southeast Asia.

4. The concept of culture as employed in modernization theory does not have the capacity to explain why the middle class does not play an important role in promoting democracy in Southeast Asia. Discuss.

5. Is corruption an inevitable outcome of state intervention in the economy? Discuss with reference to Malaysia and Singapore.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!!

2012-01-04T22:27:00.006+08:00

Its not too late for me to wish you guys a Happy New Year 2012! Hopefully you guys will achieve for what you have planned for this year. BTW I was in Pangkor Island during the New Year Eve (Countdown). See the picture above, I didnt planned to snorkle while I was in Pangkor because the next day Im gonna seat for my final exam. So I need to save my energy. But somehow I cant resist the smells of the sea. Owh how terrible I love nature! I asked for the local kids to bring me to other places besides from the snorkle area (because I've been there before and had my experienced snorkling at the same area). Without any delay the kids asked, "Haven't you see the Long Spine Sea Urchin?" I looked at him and paused. OMG I directly say yes! Of course! I am an adventurous lady. I enjoy doing new things eventhough the things sound silly. muahahahaha. Well the kids said that I need to follow him to the middle of the sea and watch the unique creature living under the sea! Owh I was so excited when they really trust my swimming skills because I said I dont want to wear the life jacket but if anything happen please safe my life ahahahaha... (but they asked me to bring the life jacket. Just bring without wearing it hehehe)

SEA CUCUMBER!

(hahahaha ramai orang geli dengan this living creature! best je pegang laaaa)

Ermm... What are my 2012 resolutions?

1. Finish up my dissertation

2. Buy a house

3. Collect at least RM1k per month

4. Full scuba dive license at Sipadan/Semporna Island

5. Europe!

6. 55kgs!

7. Istiqarah for future husband! I have to do this! At least I got the answert by end of this year!

THE 2011 IS GONNA END SOON

2011-12-30T15:02:00.002+08:00

Like many of you, every year I'll set myown goals (new year resolutions). But why do so many of us set New Year's resolutions and never attempt to achieve them? Errrkkkkk hahahaha. Before we kiss our bittersweet 2011 goodbye, lets see what have we achieved so far...muahahahha.

1. Better employment (errr i can say YES)

2. Get 1k saved up per month (hahaha i cant manage my financial)

3. Get up early in the morning everyday at 630am including weekends (tetttttttttttt)

4. Recite Surah Yasin every Thursday night (except for period time) (twice a month at least!)

5. Buy my own property (A house maybe) (Arggghhhh I didnt buy anyyyyyy!!!!)

6. Finish my master by end this year (UM change its policy, STUPID!)

7. Go for 55kgs! (Right now Im 58kgs!) (But today my weight is 59kgs)

8. UK & IRELAND! (Cant even buy flight tickets-admitted in hospital for 4 days)

9. Scuba Diving! (Next year somewhere around Sept at Sipadan!)

10. Playing sports once a week (I did this! Twice a week!)

11. Find my other step-siblings (Not yet searching)

12. Settle my late dad's debt (Ermmmmm.... some!)

13. Tahlil for arwah once a month if possible (4 times for this year)
14. Get a new laptop (yeayyyy!!!!!! got it!)

15. More FOCUS in anything especially on my dissertation (BULLSHIT)

16. Go for facial treatment every 3months (Yup, did it!)

17. Reading books, journals, articles!!make it as a hobby (Yup, everyday before I go to bed)

18. Parachuting/Paragliding (Dont have any opportunity)

19. Buy gold (good investment) (Got few jewellery from someone as a gift!)

20. Love him even more and get engaged (insyaallah) :"(

PLANNING IS IMPORTANT

2011-12-26T16:39:00.002+08:00

seriously

PLANNING IS REALLY REALLY IMPORTANT

or else I'll stuck at home doing nothing

BORING!

4 DAYS IN TAWAKKAL SPECIALIST

2011-12-25T13:47:00.001+08:00

Last week I was admitted in Tawakkal Specialist Medical Centre

I was there for 4 days and 3 nights.

Hurm.... Why suddenly I've been admitted??

Last sunday morning. I planned to go for my swimming session.

I woke up at 7am and duhhh why so early la minah..?

Yelaaa school holidays maaaa..

So at least if I swim early in the morning, my believed that the kids are still on their sweetdreams. hik hik hik. (really sure!)

Without any delay I drove my car straight away to the Stadium but suddenly I felt imbalance and I almost collapsed in the car while driving. Shoot! That's so dangerous!!!

Hell, I drove slowly to any nearer medical centre.

Luckily Tawakkal was quite near at that time so I dropped by at that medical centre and parked my vehicle outside.

I walked like not-so-sober person (like a person who get minor drunk) hahaha.

But unexpectedly I vomitted while I was walking to the counter.

The nurses quickly went to me with the wheel chair.

Later on, the Dr examined me and he asked me to stay in ward.

So thats the story. hahahaha.

BRAINSTEM MIGRAINE

The body releases chemical and cause the imflammation of the blood vessels.

Something wrong with the nerves as well.

Plus my Blood Pressure went very low.

Thats why I almost collapsed I guess.

Well staying for 4 days in the hospital was not so bad.

At least I have my REST and GOOD SLEEP over there!

The drugs really made me fall asleep.

MISS YOU BRO

2011-12-15T15:17:00.002+08:00

Long hair. OMG you just look like me! Look like so she-male la you Aboy.
Just guess which one is my brother?
You're absolutely right! The one with blue collar shirt inside!
I MISS HIM SO MUCH!!!!!

Currently he's in Dublin, Ireland.
Medic Student - 3rd year
ALL THE BEST BRO!

DR MIRA-MUNK IS BACK

2011-12-12T00:19:00.003+08:00

SUMPAH HAPPY GILA AFTER DAPAT TAHU SHE IS BACK!!! BUKAN BACK TO KL FOR GOOD LAAAAA... SHE'S BACK FOR BLOGGING!!!! woot woot. I really really miss her...!!!!! Tak sabar nak ke sabah next year weh...!!!!! boleh ambil diving license sekali harung....

This picture was taken in 2009 kot. Jogging kat Batu Caves!

JOBLESS / CAREERLESS

2011-12-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha like seriously this isnt funny at all. I've tendered within 24 hours. OMG betol ke tak apa yang aku buat ni. Nahhhh ini namanya TIADA REZEKI! miahahahaha. Ok mesti tertanya-tanya kenapa kan. Well I have worked with Dubaiz Land Berhad as a Business Manager for 7 months je. Its a property developer company. Public listed? Check it in Bursa Malaysia ok. hahaha. Hurm why out of sudden berhenti kan? Ok my exec chairman (owner of the company/ pemegang share yang paling banyak) asked me to move to Kelantan for He wanted me to focus and concentrate more on Kuala Krai's project but errrrr........ That was like so suddenly ok. A very very short notice. I dont have any choices. Take it or leave it. So I decided to leave my career uwaaaaa seriously sedih. I started to like my job ok! But shit happens. I need to transfer but I cant. I have other commitments in KL. huhuhuhu. Itu la ceritanya. So now I am considered as a careerless la hahahaha but no worries. I will take this opportunity to finish up all my assignments and can start focus on my research paper. Akan kembali ber-career by Januari next year InsyaAllah. Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa T_T

DEMAM OMBAK RINDU

2011-12-05T16:58:00.004+08:00

Sumpah dah lama tak tengok movie melayu yang se heavy macam ni. Aku masih demam dengan cerita ni. Aduh. Masih terlekat lagi jalan cerita di kepala ni. Syuh Syuh ke tepi. Banyak lagi kerja yang nak kena buat.. Tapi Maya Karin sangat super natural beauty dalam cerita ni. Sangat menghayati watak. Watak dia sangat sangat sangat heavy dan everytime scene dia je mesti menangis! Confirm ramai gila pun tengah demam tengok cerita ni. Kudos to the main actor and actress! Sweet sangat la cerita ni!!!!! Thank you Maya Karin! Love you! hahahahahaha...

OMBAK RINDU OST

2011-12-05T16:40:00.000+08:00

ANOTHER SAD LOVE SONG...

WILD IS SEXY

2011-11-29T15:58:00.005+08:00

LEOPARD PRINTED

ZEBRA PRINTED

TIGER PRINTED

CHEETAH PRINTED

I am one of the fanatic of this kind of fashion style.

From up to toe!

I have all from up to toe.

My close friends know how I love animal-printed-style.

For me, it is quite exotic and I love it so much!

HOW MUCH?

2011-11-27T02:00:00.004+08:00

Everday without fail, you'll ask me HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE ME and my answer is I LOVE YOU THIS MUCH (with the action)

I LOVE YOU...

2011-11-23T16:57:00.008+08:00

I LOVE YOU...

...MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF

DON'T EVER LEAVE MY SIDE

T_T

I WANT MORE VACATION

2011-11-21T16:40:00.004+08:00

Benda yang compulsory kena buat every year adalah percutian!
Last few months sudah ke Vietnam.
Ada rezeki mahu terbang ke Dubai and Istanbul if possible next month!
Mahu mahu mahu!
Next year ingin ke London and Dublin!

So, apalagi?
KUMPUL DUIT LAAAA WEH....
(alamatnya, sampai ke tua lah tak kahwin kahwin hahaha)

YOU ARE RIGHT C.T.N

2011-11-16T16:12:00.003+08:00

Owh C.T.N. How I miss you so much! Its been awhile laaa. Come and visit me la weh. Aiyo, very busy la you C.T.N. Well I am so super sorry because I never listened to your advices before. You are right! Totally right! She's such a W and B! I thought she'll change for the better but I thought wrong bebeh. She's still the same. Even though I helped her quite a lot and I never had such a negative feelings towards her. Why does she envy me so much? Talk behind my back? Owh pathetic you girl. I know this is so obviously 'ENVY' cause I can sense it. hahaha feel so UNSECURED la tu. I don't know why she loves to mess up with me for I did nothing to her. She's so irritating la. She really pissed me off. Well, in life 'PATIENCE' is important so with this patience attitude in me I can't slap on her face. Lucky for her. Its ok. Instead of having such negative feelings, I prefer praying to Allah for all praise belongs to HIM. Alhamdulillah ya Allah for giving me a great life even though you took my beloved sister and father but you give me a really good life after that and I am still happy with that ya Rahman. I love you ya Rahim and I forgive her mistakes. And please forgive her for being so envy towards me. She's only human. Indeed I am homo-sapien whom always make mistakes and always ask for your forgiveness. Allah love people with good hearts (clean nawaitu).

The Memories Remain-Sedetik Lebih English Version

2011-11-15T13:05:00.003+08:00

i can see the sadness in your eyes
and every teardrop that you cry
i hope you know it's hard to let you go

the time is here
i have to say goodbye
I laid my life
i've seen the light
i hope you know it's hard to let you go

i swear to be the shadow by your side
to be the shining star to light the darkness of your night
i will survive

in the end as i cross the line of life and dead
i find my way back in your heart again
and i promise i will stay for ever and a day
the memories remain

(This song really makes me crazy...!!!) For both version!!! The lyrics really kills me!!! hahahaha (jiwang mood!)

GIFT FROM SPECIAL SOMEONE

2011-11-13T23:47:00.004+08:00

Do you ever get something from your special someone? Hahaha what kind of question is this Zecca? For sure, you'll get at least one in your life right? What is the greatest gift besides the abstract gifts (love-courage-care-etc..) that you've ever get from your loved one on the-no-any-occasion-event? What I mean here, he/she so suddenly gives the gift to you because of no reason (actually the reason is he/she loves you toooooooo much until he/she didn't know what to do besides loving you sooooooo damn much so they buy you something that can make you smile all day long)... I-phone? Blackberry? I-pad? Samsung-Tab? Gucci-Prada-Tods-Coach-LV handbags/heels? Rolex? Whatever gifts, you name it...hehehe But as for myself, my baby loves to give me gold. Yes, GOLD. I mean not the bar one, but the jewelery. hehehe And I love it so much! So precious to me! And today I just got a GOLD BRACELET from me! He was driving and suddenly put his hand inside his pocket. Ok so awkward! (never seen this before while he's driving) hehehe jeng jeng jeng, "Do you think that this 'thing' can make you put your smile on your face all day long sayang?" arrggghhh (screamingggggggg!!!!) What a sweet lovely surprise baby!!!! And it might made me cry a little!!! uhuk uhuk uhuk. Thanks baby for the sweet surprise, your love-encouragement-support-care really shine my world and I never ask such materials for I'm not a "Materialistic person". Just bear in mind that I love you the way you are, truly from the bottom of my small reddish heart. Well I do really appreciate all the gift sayang! Thank you so much. You really mean the world to me. Not because of the gift you gave to me but because of YOU! YOU'RE BEING YOU!

-LOVE.IS.IN.THE.AIR-

YEAYYYY . HAPPPPPPPPPPY!!!!!

CONGRATULATIONS SADDIQ AND FAEZAH

2011-11-13T23:14:00.005+08:00

11.11.11 (Happy Birthday Saddiq!) (And as a gift on his birthday, Allah gave him a beautiful wife, Faezah) Congratulations for both of you. I knew them since I was 13 (form one). We were in the same class (SMK Seksyen 5 Wangsa Maju). I was quite close with both of them actually. Seriously like so sweet-bestfriend. But both of them ended up as husband and wife for last 2 days (Fate-Destiny-Fortune-Luck from HIM are always beautiful yet full of surprises!!). Im so happy for them! Pray for their good happiness marriage, health and wealth...another one -----BABIESSSSS!!!

MY GIRLS part 1...heart them most! Fatin-Shai-Myra

My Girls part 2.. Added Shafira and Faezah

The Girls part 3...Added Tasha!!! Wheee...

ELEVEN.ELEVEN.20 ELEVEN

2011-11-11T12:37:00.003+08:00

Everyone is talking about the date of 11.11.11.
Yes I admit it is quite unique date/number to be remembered.
Well for myself, when I was in my teenage prime, I was planning to get married on this special date but the time is not mine yet. But few of my friends are getting married today! Congratulations. I'm so happy for them. Moreover my Business Development Manager just got his special plate number for his new Porsche Cayenne WWW 1111. Cool right? hehehe.

So, what is my planning for the next time ahead? I don't know but I'm looking forward to get any good news, if not by today, sooner or later will be. hahaha. Career development perhaps! I wish to finish my Masters Degree by next year and starting to search for a new career that suits me. Well I guess I'm good in doing business but the word 'RISK' demolished my business skills hahaha. But no harm trying right? Will start it soon! Pray for me.

HAPPY FRIDAY!
HAPPY ELEVEN ELEVEN ELEVEN!

CLASS EVERYDAY? I'M SCREWED!

2011-11-09T17:13:00.003+08:00

This week is my mid term break (Gotta be my final year in UM). So supposedly I dont have to go to class. But My Prof Dr Gomez (My Politic's lecturer) asked all the student to attend his class everyday until this Friday. OMG! Working hours (9am - 6pm). Class hours (6pm - 930pm). This is not good! Seriously not good! Have to cut down my night activities for awhile. But tonight I have to go for my karaoke session after class! MUST GO! hahaha. I need my leisure activities weh...!!!

END UP = FATIGUE!

GET READY TO GO TO UM. BYE!

KENA KAHWIN AWAL KE?

2011-11-08T13:59:00.005+08:00

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda:

Tiga perkara yang jangan dilambat-lambatkan, iaitu solat apabila telah masuk waktunya, jenazah apabila telah siap (urusan mandi dan kafan) dan anak gadis setelah ditemui (pasangan) yang sesuai untuknya. (H.R. Tirmidzi)

Kahwin awal bukan satu masalah. Mari lihat persoalan-persoalan yang selalu menerjah di kepala anak-anak muda yang fitrahnya terhalang atas sebab-sebab tertentu.

1. Kahwin waktu masih belajar, adakah tidak mengganggu pelajaran?

Siapa cakap kahwin waktu sedang belajar mengganggu? Salah tanggapan tu. Sepatutnya, kahwin awal lebih memberi kita semangat yang membara. Yelah, sudah ada pasangan yang halal dan akan sentiasa menyokong kita, mesti la lagi bersemangat mau belajar kan? Lagi satu, orang yang sudah kahwin ni akan berasa lebih bertanggungjawab dari sebelum kahwin. Sebab mereka tahu bahawa mereka punya pasangan untuk dijaga, jadi mereka pun akan berusaha untuk buat yang terbaik bagi pasangan mereka. Apa-apa pun, tengok ibu bapa kita saja sebagai contoh. Sudah kahwin, tapi adakah mengganggu kerja mereka? Tidak kan?

2. Saya masih belajar, macam mana mahu bagi nafkah pada isteri kalau belum ada kerja?

Saya tahu ramai antara kita yang masih belajar, dan ramai yang meminjam dapat elaun biasiswa. Saya beranggapan pasangan yang ingin dikahwini jugak masih study Jadi ia bermakna dua-dua masih dapat hidup dengan wang yang asas tu. Jadi, sementara masih belum ada kerja, suami berilah nafkah yang termampu kepada isteri. Mungkin $25 atau $50 sebulan? Bergantung kepada berapa banyak isteri gunakan untuk makan. Lagipun, isteri jugak ada wang, jadi tak perlu rasa ada masalah di situ. Yang penting dua-dua masih dapat hidup. Lain la kalau isteri demand kereta, rumah, rantai emas, baju berlambak-lambak, dan macam-macam lagi. Jadi, sepatutnya tiada masalah dalam bab nafkah. Cuba kita tengok orang Arab zaman Nabi dulu. Adakah kebanyakan daripada mereka orang berharta? Tidak. Mereka cuma mampu memberi isteri makan makanan setakat yang mereka mampu beri. Itu pun sudah mencukupi untuk dijadikan nafkah. Nabi tak larang pun orang miskin berkahwin. Jangan jadikan kekurangan wang sebagai penghalang perkahwinan. Itu namanya menyalahkan takdir Allah. Berdosa.

Firman Allah: Dan kahwinkanlah orang-orang bujang (lelaki dan perempuan) dari kalangan kamu, dan orang-orang yang soleh dari hamba-hamba kamu, lelaki dan perempuan. Jika mereka miskin, Allah akan memberikan kekayaan kepada mereka dari limpah kurniaNya kerana Allah Maha Luas (rahmatNya dan limpah kurniaNya), lagi Maha Mengetahui. (An-Nur:32)

3. Macam mana mahu cari modal untuk majlis perkahwinan?

Apa perkara asas dalam kahwin? Ya, akad nikah dan walimatul urus. Merisik dan bertunang tu bukan wajib pun. Jadi, potong kos seperti bagi hantaran waktu merisik dan bertunang, sudah jimat wang. Waktu akad nikah pun, jemputlah keluarga terdekat dengan kawan-kawan saja yang dapat datang. Berdosa bila tidak menghadiri jemputan walimatul urus. Jadi, jimat sikit kos kenduri. Buang wang saja sewa pelamin, sewa baju pengantin, sewa jurukamera dengan mak andam semua tu kerana ia termasuk dalam hal-hal yang sia-sia. Mas kahwin pun tidak perlu tinggi-tinggi kerana sebaik-baik magar adalah yang paling rendah. Mudah saja majlis perkahwinan dalam agama Islam. Tidak sampai puluh ribu pun.

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w: Tiga golongan yang akan selalu diberi pertolongan oleh Allah ialah seorang mujahid yang selalu memperjuangkan agama Allah s.w.t, seorang penulis yang selalu memberi penawar dan seorang yang menikah demi menjaga kehormatan dirinya. (H.R. Thabrani)

4. Tidak terlalu awalkah untuk saya berkahwin?

Kalau rasa dengan kahwin boleh buat semangat untuk belajar semakin meningkat, kahwin la. Kalau rasa kahwin boleh buat diri semakin bersemangat dalam agama, kahwin la. Kalau rasa kahwin boleh elak daripada fitnah dan maksiat, kahwin la. Itu maksudnya, kahwin memang perlu di usia muda. Benda yang baik, jangan dilambatkan. Takut kelak bertukar menjadi benda yang tidak baik. Cuba bayangkan anda ada pasangan yang disukai. Kan bagus kita cepatkan benda yang baik dengan berkahwin terus. Tapi kalau kita melambatkan perkahwinan yang bagus itu, mungkin kita akan terjerumus ke lembaah maksiat. Kenapa kita boleh beralasan untuk melakukan perkara yang halal, tetapi tidak langsung mengemukakan alasan untuk melakukan perkara yang haram? Tanya diri, jagalah iman.

Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w: Apabila datang kepadamu seorang laki-laki untuk meminang, yang engkau redha terhadap agama dan akhlaknya, maka nikahkanlah dia. Bila tidak engkau lakukan maka akan terjadi fitnah di muka bumi dan akan timbul kerosakan yang merata di muka bumi. (H.R. Tirmidzi dan Ahmad)

5. Bersediakah saya untuk kahwin awal?

Ini soalan paling bagus ditanya kepada diri sendiri. Tanya dulu soalan asas ni. Sudahkah saya solat penuh 5 kali sehari semalam? Bertanggungjawab sudahkah saya? Adakah saya panas baran atau penyabar? Adakah saya seorang yang bercakap menggunakan akal atau bertindak menggunakan akal di lutut? Pendek kata, ada banyak soalan spesifik yang boleh ditanya kepada diri sendiri. Walau apa pun jawapan dia, ini nasihat saya. Sentiasalah perbaiki diri dan mantapkan diri. Orang yang sudah berkahwin dan sedang belajar solat lebih baik berbanding orang yang sudah kahwin dan pandai solat tapi tidak amalkannya lepas kahwin. Orang yang bersedia mengubah dirinya adalah yang paling bersedia sebenarnya.

6. Macam mana dengan restu ibu bapa?

Ya, ini la benda paling susah bila mahu kahwin awal. Faktor penghalang paling utama. Kalau kita dapat menjelaskan dengan baik kepada ibu bapa dan mereka faham, insyaAllah tiada masalah untuk berkahwin awal. Tapi kalau ibu bapa kita susah mahu terima sebab fikiran mereka masih terikat dengan fikiran tipikal masyarakat Melayu sekarang ni yang lebih terpengaruh kepada adat dan cerekarama di tv semata-mata, serta pemikiran risau akan tak cukup wang nak sara anak dara orang, sudah tentu mereka tidak akan terima setiap hujah yang diberikan seperti di atas. Apa-apa pun, saya doakan yang terbaik untuk mereka yang mahu kahwin awal supaya cepat bertemu jodoh. Ingat, bila seseorang itu berkahwin kerana ingin mengikut sunnah Rasulullah, maka terbukalah segala pintu rezeki untuknya. Lihat, betapa banyaknya kelebihan kahwin awal. Fikiran kita yang sempit saja membuatkan kahwin ni nampak terlalu susah sangat.

Umar bin al-Khattab r.a telah berkata: Kahwinlah anak-anak kamu apabila sampai baligh, janganlah kamu menanggung dosa-dosa mereka. (Disebut oleh Ibnu Jauzi dalam Ahkam An-Nisa)

Untuk golongan-golongan yang sedang hangat bercinta tu, sebaiknya kahwinlah awal. Lebih banyak kelebihan kahwin awal berbanding kahwin lambat. Tapi semua itu pilihan masing-masing juga. Mudah-mudahan setiap pilihan yang kita buat adalah yang terbaik dan dirahmati Allah. InsyaAllah.

Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda: Siapa yang benci dengan cara hidup (sunnah) ku maka dia tidak termasuk golonganku (H.R Bukhari dan Muslim)

HAJI BADAL

2011-11-05T21:26:00.003+08:00

Ok esok 10 Zulhijjah 1432, seluruh umat islam di pelusuk dunia akan menyambut Hari Raya Aidiladha/Korban. Ini juga adalah salah satu hari bersejarah dalam kalender islam dimana mengisahkan pengorbanan seorang hamba Allah/ bapa/nabi iaitu Nabi Ibrahim yang sanggup mengorbankan anaknya iaitu Nabi Ismail dan Allah SWT telah menukarkan Nabi Ismail kepada seekor Qibas ketika penyembelihan sedang dilakukan. MasyaAllah kuasa Allah SWT. Jadinya setiap tahun pada bulan ZUlhijjah kita akan dapati betapa ramainya umat islam akan ke tanah suci Mekah untuk menunaikan ibadah haji (rukun islam yang kelima).

Many years ago, our father Ibrahim (AS) made a choice. He loved his son. But He loved God more. The commandment came to sacrifice his son. But it wasn't his son that was slaughtered. It was his attachment. It was his attachment to anything that could compete with his love for God. And the beauty of such a sacrifice is this: Once you let go of your attachment, what you love is given back to you--now in a purer, better form. So let us ask ourselves in these beautiful days of sacrifice, which attachments do we need to slaughter? - Yasmin Mogahed

Dan kenapa dengan Haji Badal? Haji Badal (Haji Gantian) ialah haji yang ditunaikan oleh seseorang untuk orang lain (macam wakilkan orang lain untuk membuat haji). Adik beradik arwah bak bersetuju untuk membuat haji badal untuk arwah bak pada tahun ini. Alhamdulillah walaupun arwah sudah ke rahmatullah, namun masih ada ruang untuk rohnya ke tanah suci Mekah dengan menggunakan tiket haji badal ini. Walau bagaimanapun, aku naik hairan kenapa mak saudara aku tidak meminta satu sen langsung duit aku. Ini disebabkan syarat-syarat nya aku tidak pernah menunaikan haji maka tidak boleh untuk menghulurkan walaupun se sen untuk haji badal terhadap arwah.Alhamdulillah. Mulia sungguh hati adik beradik arwah bak.

Bak dan Fina. Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha. Semoga sentiasa dilindungi Allah SWT dekat alam sana. Rindu kalian sangat-sangat. Esok insyaAllah akan ke pusara arwah Bak dan arwah Fina. Al-Fatihah

I HATE NAIL CLIPPER

2011-11-04T17:29:00.003+08:00

How often you cut your nails?
How often you go to manicure/pedicure saloon?
Every 3 days? Every week? Every 2 weeks? Every 10 days?
I have a very bad experience with this tool.
I was so curious with this thing when I was small. And one day I saw that tool on the table at my living hall. My parents forgot to keep that away from me I guess. So without any delay I grabbed that thing and went out from my house and tried it hahaha.
And suddenly I over-cut my nail and it was bleeding and I cried so bad!
After that incident, I have my very big trauma with nail-clipper.
That's why up til now I will hire someone to cut my fingernails as well as my toenails.
Don't laugh. Not funny at all!
But right now I have my own permanent mani-pedi stylist!!!
And he does that for freeeeeeeeeee!!!!
But for the buffing part, I need to do it by my own. (super dislike!)

I hope that one day I have a chemistry with nail clipper

PAMERAN PENGANTIN MALAYSIA SACC 2011

2011-11-03T15:37:00.011+08:00

MY 4th TIMES WEARING WHITE WEDDING GOWN
BUT WITH DIFFERENT DESIGN/OWNER BOUTIQUE

White again?
Haha do you think Im suit in white?
Well, this fashion show was held on 30th October 2011 at Shah Alam City Centre.
I was there since Saturday. Helping my friend (the boutique owner) doing some marketing. The fashion show started at 2pm and my make up session began at 120pm.
It took me about 30 minutes untuk bersiap. Well I salute the make up artist (Kak Nurin) for she only took about 3 hours untuk siapkan 7 model and I was the last person untuk disiapkan.
Hahaha sampai lipstick pun pakai sendiri while Kak Nurin sanggul-sanggul my hair (sangat kelam kabut ok!) so I chose color lipstick yang kena dengan manik-manik di atas my gown. hehehe

So, lets see the result after 30 minutes make over

Confident - eventhough the kain is so damn labuh

The boutique's owner (Husband & Wife)

Izz Studio Wedding Boutique's booth

LAST WORD FROM A

2011-11-01T13:47:00.003+08:00

"Its easy for you to say that the memories thought us a lot. Those memories made your relationship stronger right? But for me? I'm just a lab rat. Why? Why am I so in love with you? Shit! Those memories just hurting me deeper and deeper every single day. I hate it! Maybe its my destiny. As long as you are happy I'm cool with it."

"Erase you? You know that I will never have the strength to erase you in my heart. You know it better. But I have to try even if I couldn't. Maybe we are not meant to be together, me and you :(. Take care! Enjoy your life! Love him with all your heart, don't repeat the same mistake again. Please don't waste my contribution. You just lost a great guy, but its ok. You lost it to someone greater. And last word from me, my love for you is the best true love I have ever felt in my life. No doubt about it. I love you more than I have ever love somebody else. But I know, even if I could give you the world, you will never choose me than him. Its ok sayang, as long as you are happy with your decision, I have to try to accept the fact that I'm not yours. Take care my love."

"Its tearing up my heart when I'm with you, and when we are apart I feel it too. And no matter what I do I feel the pain, with or without you"

PASSWORD

2011-10-31T20:57:00.001+08:00

Why password? I bet everyone in this world have at least one password on their own. Well, password is a secret series of characters or digits that enables a user to access whatever file, program, secret-box, ATM machine and whatnot. Hahaha. The password helps to ensure that unauthorized users cannot access the owner's side/part/place/file/etc.... Moreover the password should be something that no one couldn't guess at all. But certain people (I believe) they will put their ID number or handphone number or their partner/kids name as their password. Its easy to remember/memorize the password if they put such password above. How about yours? What is your password? As for me, certain things like computer and lappy password, I let my siblings know about it. Because they usually use it and I will get fed up if they ask me to type my password when everytime they want to use it.

Last time I was a bit secretive of sharing my password with my close one since I was a bit 'naughty' (numbers of 'special friends') hahaha so I was afraid if one day I get caught but not for now. You know all passwords of mine, I shared with my baby? Sound's stupid right? But that's the truth. From my email password, facebook, ATM machine (every bank), handphone to the little tiny things I shared with him...ahahahaha... I cannot believe that. Well, I trust him so bad. hehehe. People out there. Don't follow my steps if you're not ready for it. Ok? But don't hesitate to share your password with me..!!!! I can be trusted, seriously. hehehe

RELATIONSHIP, SINGLE & BACK AGAIN

2011-10-28T13:26:00.004+08:00

How miserable I was when he broke up with me last 2 weeks. Yes, it was my mistake. Not a small tiny one. But this time for real is big and huge! Like having an affair with other guys at the same time you are in a relationship with your boyfriend. But I didn't claimed myself as a player for I am not until I met my boyfriend. I was totally change. Last time, I had numbers of boyfriend at one time. Until the day I met my baby. He changed the whole me but I don't mind of changing for the better. His love is so pure and I love him too much. Well, people can't run from doing mistakes right? But somehow with this challenges, we will know how strong our relationship is. Yes, I met another guy at my previous workplace and he treated me well. Seriously, very well. He took care of me! Very concern towards me. And he fell for me. He wasn't the one to be blamed because I involved my own heart as well. So I was the one who should be blamed. I'm sorry baby. I hurt you. But after we went for our separation period, we knew that we can't handle our emotion for not having each other hearts but we love each other so bad. So what I can say here is we were so stupid for that separation period but somehow it taught us a lot. So now we are back together after 2 weeks of being single. Hahaha and our love grow stronger and stronger each day and I thank to my baby for forgiving my bad mistake. T_T

"People get back together after the most horrible breakups.. Even lots of people that shouldn't be together, still get a second (or third) chance."

Whatever it is, "JODOH, PERTEMUAN, AJAL, MAUT DI TANGAN TUHAN"

P/s: To that person > Knowing you was not a mistake. Allah SWT sent you to me for some reasons. Thank you so much for shining up my life while we were good, helping me in almost everything and such. And I really appreciate that. Allah SWT will pay for your kindness, I pray for that. And again before I rest my case, thanks for the memories.

THIS YOUNG MAN

2011-10-27T01:15:00.004+08:00

I really heart this young man so bad. Seriously! He's younger than me but i don't care at all.

He's the sweetest guy on earth I've ever met.

When I am missing him so terribly, I will read his blog (that blog is dedicated for me because its all about me hehehe) Don't tell me he's crazy or insane but hahahaha that's the way he wanted to show off his love (expressing love). Sweet and romantic person.

I am dying reading all his sweet entries at his blog. So butterfly!

Very supportive person.

Big appetite. OMG! How am I going to work on my diet! He loves to see me getting fatter and fatter each day! WTH!

Hahaha. Whenever I said my tummy becomes bigger and bigger each day, He will say "that is the sexiest part that i will love to kiss everyday, especially when you carry my baby, so don't be afraid of the physical side of you because I love you the way you are. Not your body" Uwaaaaa!!!

He's very kind.

So precious to me!

He's one in a million!

That is wh y

I LOVE HIM

ooooo im speechlesssssssss

I LOVE YOU MY YOUNG MAN

PAST vs PRESENT

2011-10-27T01:13:00.000+08:00

WOMAN = CRYING

2011-10-19T16:16:00.003+08:00

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she ...told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he put in a call to God. When God got on the phone, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said, "When I made the woman she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world,

yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

By: Navin Jethmalani

TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS

2011-10-17T14:51:00.003+08:00

I've been working hard so long. Seems like pain has been my only friend. My fragile heart's been done so wrong. I wondered if I'd ever heal again. Owh just like all the seasons never stay the same. All around me I can feel a change

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me. Leave the past behind me because TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS. A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking. I know I can make it because TODAY MY LIFE BEGINS. Yesterday has come and gone. And I've learnt how to leave it where it is. And I see that I was wrong. For ever doubting I could win.

LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO HAVE REGRETS. SO I'M LEARNING NOW TO LEAVE IT IN THE PAST AND TRY TO FORGET BECAUSE WE ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE TO LIVE SO BETTER MAKE THE BEST OF IT!

T_T

NEO-LIBERALISM

2011-10-15T15:49:00.002+08:00

Neo-liberalism. My topic for next Tuesday presentation and now Im at my faculty, working for my slide presentation. I just feel like to write something on my blog. I feel so sleepy and so stress struggling out this subject and my current life issue. Like shits coming towards me at one shot. Well the things that i need to include inside my slides are of course the primary concept of Neo-Liberalism and also to review the history of evolution of Neoliberalism model of development on US and Malaysia. At the same time the critical part is the problem statement > What does the implementation of neo-liberalism reflect of its benefits and shortcomings? Erm the readings is too heavy!!!! My eyes and brain cant take it anymore..... need to relax for awhile....

NEVER LET GO

2011-10-14T16:18:00.002+08:00

A MAN WHO TRULY LOVES YOU WILL NEVER LET YOU GO NO MATTER HOW HARD THE SITUATION IS...

(Wa salute pada laki macam ni weh....)

BITCH?

2011-10-14T12:48:00.002+08:00

I know you know my dad passed away last year. But you cannot simply say bad words to me like I don't have any WALI anymore. Remember, I still have my 2 little brothers that really concern and love me! I was so surprised when my brother wrote the WARNING MESSAGE to you. Im sorry.

"Dude do u think the word bitch to my sister is warranted in a public space like Facebook? That post was not specifically made out to you and there is no need for you to react that way. Do u also realize that you have shown me, your friend, or someone I considered to be a friend, blatant disrespect as by calling MY SISTER such a nasty word. FRIENDSHIP (and faces) have been broken for reasons less than this. Please get your act together, regardless of how big your conflict is with my sister, and behave like a man"

CHOICE

2011-10-13T17:17:00.002+08:00

BUT.....

BUT

2011-10-11T14:20:00.002+08:00

Which sentence will you prefer?

1. ".........BUT I LOVE YOU"

or

2. "I LOVE YOU BUT.........."

If I have to choose...
I will prefer the first one!
I want a person to love me for no reason.
Love me because of me.
Marry me because of me.
Owh man! I wish to end my bachelor's life at the age of 25.
And now Im 25!
Uwaaaa......
Dont be too desperate ZALIKHA!

FESTIVAL PENGANTIN 2011

2011-10-11T13:31:00.002+08:00

Pernah tak korang main kahwin kahwin masa kecil kecil dulu?
Time adult pun ada tak korang main kahwin kahwin jugak?
hahahahahahaha...
Dont get me wrong guys.
Gambar tersebut adalah kahwin pura-pura.
Just jadi pengantin for an hour je.
Tapi sempat la naik pelamin. Muahahaha

Ambil berkat naik pelamin.

Jom countdown kahwin bila nak?
I think i will get married at the age of 27 or 29 kot....
Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

SINGAPORE AGAIN 2011

2011-10-07T12:42:00.007+08:00

Short entry. Went to Singapore for 2 days 1 night. Business Trip I can say it as. Went there last Saturday by Pajero Mitsubishi (1st October 2011) and went back to sweet home KL the next day (2nd October 2011). Began our journey at 3pm and reached Singapore at 630pm. At first we planned to stay at Shangri La Hotel Singapore but its fully booked. What do you expect? Weekend maa.... Then the receptionist told us that there will be few rooms left at Siloso Beach Resort. Luckily, yes there are 4 rooms left and the hotel is situated exactly in front of the beach. Seriously its very nice cool hotel.

Taken outside my room. 2nd floor. The hotel is more towards "flora & fauna / Jungle" concept.

Man-made waterfall! direct to the pool!

The pathway to the room from the lift. Nice nice nice! such a wonderful weekend getaway!

After we checked in at the Siloso Beach Hotel, we went for out dinner at Mamak Restaurant that is situated exactly in front of Genting Highlands Hotel (I dont know the name of the road, what i remember was the landmark hahaha). Later my so called BOSS treated me for a "SINGAPORE FLYER'S" ride (as a birthday treats laaaa). Cool experienced. The infra looks exactly like our previous Eye On Malaysia (Titiwangsa Lake Garden, Kuala Lumpur) but this one is much more bigger and the capsule is so presentable and I can say it as an exclusive ride because the price is quite expensive and its air-condition's capsule that can accommodate around 10-15 people inside.

SINGAPORE FLYER AT NIGHT TIME
Colour changes for every 10 seconds I guess. Absolutely great scenery!

In the Singapore Flyer Capsule duirng night time. Those people who are sitting were afraid of height hahahah (gayat). They talked to each other just to release or reduce the anxious or fearful feelings! good good. Plus you can enjoy the scene of the whole Singapore from the top of the Singapore Flyer.

MARINA BAY, SINGAPORE!
Beautifuuuuuuuuuuuuuul.......!!!!

After that, we went to Night Safari. Situated a bit far from the Singapore City. It took us 30minutes to reach there. A great moment indeed!

The entrance fees is so damn expensive!
We rode this tram to see the nightlife of the animal in the Zoo. Seriously the animals are mingling around but stay with their own group. But there's no cage at all! We were quite panic. Hahaha scared if the carnivores jump over us and catch us and eat us. huhuhu. Good experience. My first time went to the Zoo during night hour!

You can also ride the elephant toooooo! I've rode it when I was small in Bangkok, Thailand.

Later we went back to hotel and had the beach party outside the hotel. Next day we went back after we had meeting with some people in Singapore. Had our Lunch at Marina Bay and Farewell Singapore. Will be going there soon. Next destination >>> UNIVERSAL STUDIO

ME JEALOUS? NO WAY AND NEVER!

2011-09-30T14:40:00.001+08:00

Hahahahahaha......!!!!!

Seriously.
To all my girlfriends!!!
If you've been dumped or you're the one who dumped your ex boo, dont feel down. Put 'above' quote as a motivation for yourself to let go all your past!
Aja Aja Fighting!

SEPTEMBER ENDS

2011-09-30T14:19:00.002+08:00

Hahaha I didnt wish/whisper to myself on my birthday pun for this year. So Happy 25th Birthday Zalikha (Belated!!!). But hey, I was not so happy during this September month for this year onwards. It reminds me of my saddest incident last year. My late dad past away one day after my birthday (18th September 2010). Plus my ex boyfriend Mohd Shazwan Shahidan past away one day before my birthday (16th September 2010). Numbers of event happened this year too but I think I better keep it to myself. How bad I hate this month but somehow, someone's sweet came down KL and celebrate my birthday and I do appreciate his effort. Thank you baby. Thanks to Munk as well. She knows me well. I love you munk! so much!

Ermmm you know what makes my tears drop banyak dan banyak lagi??? I found this status on my brother's FB wall.. And seriously I cant handle my tears... T_T

"To my beloved dad - here comes September, the month I will always think of in my whole life. I have become what you expected of me, I have become more like you. And through this journey without you, people will write my name with yours alongside. How is the world out there? I have missed you,bye.."

WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when September ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when September ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends
wake me up when September ends

HUG

2011-09-29T13:58:00.004+08:00

Even binatang pun tau berkasih sayang....
sweeeeettttnyeee tidur peluk peluk....
Nak jugakkk...!!!!
How I missed my late dad's hugs!
T_T

MOOD SWAY

2011-09-28T17:58:00.002+08:00

HOW TO BREAK A BAD MOOD!
aku PMS laa
TELL ME HOW!
BAD MOOD IS NO FUN AT ALL!
I THINK ONLY TIME CAN GETS OVER IT
GIVE ME ANY GOOD NEWS PLEASE
PERHAPS IT COULD HELP
AT LEAST A SMILE ON MY FACE
T_T

6 ALPHABETS

2011-09-20T15:37:00.002+08:00

DREAMS

ADMIRE

STUPID

TRYING

EGOISM

THANKS

BAMBAM

SITUATION

2011-09-15T17:07:00.002+08:00

Haven't you been in the situation where you end up with the wrong person at the right time and miss the right person at the wrong time....???

FEARS AND FRUSTRATIONS

2011-09-14T15:33:00.004+08:00

"The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them"

"This love affairs between you and I, do you think it's worth the try? Heart to be broken, I wonder if we do this often. You occupy my mind all day and night, I think of things to say to you, what we should do to keep this alive... You live and chills up my spine dependent on it most of the time, But for you Im just an ordinary girl. That you bumped into, hoping I'll leaving you within a month or two.

Fears and frustrations galore. I'll never understand you, I'll never be the girl you long for, I'll never be the hand you want to hold.

We spend so much time looking into each others eyes. Getting to know each others lies over looking reality. Im feeding on high expectations and happy endings. We were high above the ground. Or was it just me? I'll pull myself out of this confusion. I never meant to be an intrusion cause for you Im nothing more but just a phase.

Fears and frustrations galore. I'll never understand you. I'll never be the girl you long for. I'll never be the hand you want to hold. And if we go back in time, will you still be the same person, I'll do it all over again. I'll try to make you mine." (Yunalis)

BEEN ALL AWHILE

2011-09-14T15:20:00.002+08:00

wahhhh its been 2months since the last time I updated my blog. You can see how busy I am right? hahaha plus Ive started my new semester in UM. My last paper where it would be my toughest paper tho (this is what i heard from my friends for they have to reseat the paper again and again). So does the paper "Politics, Development and Governance" will kill me soon? We will see. hahaha. Hey I never updated you guys on how my trip to Vietnam went off right? Ermmm I'll find my time to write it here soon. What else did I missed? Owh yeah, my ramadhan went well indeed. I gained kgs! seriously. And my Syawal, errmmmm not so good compare to you guys but alhamdulillah, I still have my mama eventhough we had our salam-salam session on the 1st Syawal morning and then masing-masing ke haluan masing-masing. This is my first time I celebrated my Syawal without my beloved dad and brother. It was so damn sad! Went to uncles and aunties's place, they captured family photos (you know how hard i try to control my tears?) shit shit shit. One of my cousin whispered to my aunty for not taking the family picture because I came there all alone. uhuk uhuk uhuk. Okla... got to go now. have to finish another project proposal for tomorrow need to present it in front of my exec chairman and the board of directors. Ok guys! have a nice evening!

VIETNAM DAY 4

2011-08-02T14:58:00.010+08:00

So impressed with the hotel services and facilities. Even though hotel yang aku stay tu bley kata 2.5 stars but the hotel management still provide computer with the internet line. So before nak pergi jalan-jalan cari pasal, we GOOGLING!!!!!

We managed to visit Saigon's Public Park too.

The signboard!

One more thing... the traffic at Saigon is so terrible! If you want to cross the road, just cross it. Dont wait. Dont break while you cross the road. They will break their vehicles! They wont hit you1 trust me!

Experiencing the CYCLO. Yeehhhaaaa! Signature of Saigon too. MUST NAIK!

But the cyclo manage to bring one passanger at one time je. But its fun! Try it!

Another tourist destination at Saigon. Museum! Must Visit!

Derma derma.... (bagi duit Malaysia)

Air/Land Transportation during War in Vietnam

No idea apa benda ni...

Next Tourist Destinantion
POST OFFICE SAIGON CITY
Superb archi. seriously!
gothic architectural
The inner decor pun sangat awesome!

I was searching for a postcard. Nak hantar dekat diri sendiri. BOLEH?

Church. next to the post office! Cantik Architecture...

Drop by at Saigon River. Sip the fresh aiiirrrrrrrrrrrrr... hahaha

My dinner! Must try.
Pho' Chicken Noodle!
VN Halal Restaurant have this kind of dishes.

Our last visit. Saigon Square. SHOPPING!

Check out hotel!

Line up for airport check in.

Ready for boarding. Farewell Ho Chi Minh.
Thank you for having me!
Hi Malaysia! the best country that i will never regret to live on its land!

VIETNAM DAY 3

2011-08-02T14:57:00.012+08:00

On the third day, we went to Chu Chi Tunnel. At first, we thought that the place is quite near to the city. hahaha. I never tried googling it while I was in Malaysia. A night before Me and friends were searching for the transportation to Chu Chi Tunnel. We asked around. At last we planned to go there by bus. You know what, it took us almost 2 hours. We began our journey as early as 7am. Fuiyyoooo...! But seriously, it challenge us so bad! i love challenges! (pergi sana berani mati) Well if you want to go by bus from Saigon to Chu Chi, you have to take the No 13 bus.

Dah lama tak naik bas wehhhh

But after we reached at the Chu Chi town, we were so speechless. hahaha I never thought that the place will be so damn calm and quiet. Well I thought after we reached at the bus station, we were already at the Chu Chi Tunnel tapi actually we have to travel a bit more kilometres. Adoi...!!! Calculate punya calculate, we decided to take motor-taxi to go to Chu Chi Tunnel (macam dekat pedalaman kawasan kampung la) 30 minutes nak sampai Chu Chi Tunnel. What a fantastic experience wehhh!!!

At last we reached

The Chu Chi tunnels were the location of several military campaigns during the Vietnam War. The tunnels were used by Viet Cong as their hiding spot during combat, as well as serving as communication and supply routes, hospitals, food and weapon caches and living quarters for numerous guerrilla fighters. Thats why my friend Cha'ah was so excited to go at this historical place. Tourist destination. By the way, I've experienced for few minutes breathing in the tunnel. Suffocated!

This is one of a trap door I've experienced. A trap door on the jungle floor leads down into the Chu Chi tunnels. Closed and camouflaged, it is almost undetectable. But this door is suitable for small size only. But you know what, I never seen Vietnamese in big size yet. They are all small in size. Seriously! I think this is due to their daily food intake kot..hahaha

Asthma attacked me! I need my puffff... lack of oxygen wehhh

And its so dark! sumpah takut! terfikir ular tedung weh..!!!

TANK. in the middle of the jungle!

Shooting Range! We chose AK 47!

You can fire a variety of Vietnam War era weapons at the shooting range. I chose AK 47. It made me deaf for a while. hahaha.

After sudah half day di Chu Chi Tunnel, we went back to Saigon City but hey before I forgot, we ate ubi kayu with sugar (hahaha macam duduk zaman war dulu-dulu gitu) while minum chinese tea! Its for free. tapi nak masuk Chu Chi Tunnel ni you have to pay but seriously lupa how much RM or Dong..hahaha. Reached Saigon city around 4pm. Took shower and change clothes.

In front of Cho Ben Thanh Market. Baru lepas hujan.

Had our late lunch / early dinner (7pm dah gelap weh) D' Nyonya Restaurant! Famous jugak! Especially for muslim la. This restaurant is situates in the middle of Saigon city. very near to the Pos Office and hotels.

Vietname Fried Rice (must order) laaazzaaaattt!!! spicy!

After dinner, we had our leisure at Gloria's Coffee! Chill place to hang out!

Then we jalan-jalan outside the Ben Thanh Market. Macam Petaling Street di malaysia. But here is much more cheaper. My friend Ernie borong baju kurung for 50 pieces kot..!!!

Keep bargain, bargain and bargain...!!!

But hey dont forget to buy this famous vietnam coffee! But jangan tertipu. Different place have different price. You should buy it at Ben Thanh area (night market) so you can get as cheaper as 37000 Dong...!!! TERRBBAAAIIIKKK weh coffee diaaaa...!!! memang KAWWWW!!!

VIETNAM DAY 1 & DAY 2

2011-08-02T11:39:00.017+08:00

28th July 2011 (Thursday) - I went to Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam with Cha'ah (samurians) for vacation. Actually I was planning to go there with Munks but unfortunately we bought the flight tickets on different date. hahaha. Ermmm it took me 1 1/2 hours journey to reach at Ho Chi Minh airport. Actually we've already booked the hotel and they sent a person to fetch us at the airport. The name of the hotel where we were staying was AN AN 2 HOTEL.

Room No 013

The unique of the Ho Chi Minh town is the shop operates as early as 7am but close at 7pm. For the 1st day, I spent my whole day at Ben Thanh Market (Famous place to be visited). I bought 10 pieces of kain (cotton, silk, chiffon, etc) and custom-made it at the same kedai. I spent almost RM700 for all those kain and tailoring stuff (so cheap) hehehee... But in any country pun, they will gaming you by giving you ridiculous price but you have to know how to bargain...!!!! hahahaha....

In front of Ben Thanh market (at the roundabout)

Choosing jubah for mama

At the back of Ben Thanh Market (Tutti Frutti !!!!)

Saloon in the middle of Ho Chi Minh town

After we had lot of fun in the Ben Thanh market, after we had spend a lot of cash for all stuffs inside the building, we went to have our late lunch at VN Halal. This is one of the famous muslim 's restaurant in Vietnam. The food are so nice! seriously!

The Menu

What we ordered... (yang penting coffee vietnam!)

This was the only cash that left on the 1st day...

We walked by the city after we had our meal. Suddenly we found a cool dental place and the price is so affordable. Without any delay we went into the dental place and asked for the scaling session.

The person in charge asked me to fill in the personal details.
Hahaha first time went to dental place out of my own country. Let see hows the treatment and services.

45minutes!

Ouch! but the service was not so bad! great moment! RM35 for scaling session! Sumpah murah giler!

Vietnam's signature (Topi petani itu)

With the owner. Bought one shirt macam dia pakai!

Next day. Jalan jalan....

In front of the VIVA Coffee Cafe.

Great idea. Save budget. Motorcycle-taxi. Brought us to Chinatown. what a cool experience. You know how bad the traffic looks like in Vietnam right? Tak sistematik langsung. Main redah je

As we arrived at China Town.......

CHO BINH TAY. Its hard to communicate at this market area. They dont understand english very well apalagi nak converse it back kan. hantuk kepala kat dinding!!! So we decided not to buy anything at this market because of the language barrier.

At the back of CHO BINH TAY market... For pious people (I think for buddhist kot)

The condition of the market from the inside. Well it was 630pm (vietname hour) so the people were rushing back home. All the shop close at 7pm sharp! See the stairs covered with the red carpet. Seriously its stairs! bukan escalator! TIPAH TERTIPU

In the Vinason Taxi. Heading to Hard Rock Cafe! Hooyeaahhh!!!

Ho Cho Minh Hard Rock Cafe! (9pm)

Wish to buy the cap but the price was toooooo............ ermmmm

The fitting room! cantik kan interior diA!

hahaha every angle of the kedai pun nak capture! appreciate the art/design of the cafe! nice nice nice (guitar by simple plan)

Stairs to the pub area...

We spent an hour at the Hard Rock Cafe. Then we went back to the Ho Chi Minh town by .....? (jalan kaki wehhhhhh) hahahaha it was raining cats and dogs tapi redah jelaaa... Nasib I brought my topi ala ala foreigner tu hahaha It took us almost an hour to reach at our hotel area. Fuh Fuh... Thanks to the map. Owh by the way we tried so hard to ask people around but they dont understand english. Tapi kan, I stopped at this lawyer firm, wishing that lawyer can understand english plus can co0nverse back la.. Thank god! nasib baik! hahaha...

Night time at Saigon! Foreigners here and there.

We stopped by to this place "Yogurt Space". Taste like Tutti Frutti but this one got number of choices. Seriously enak!

This was what we had before we went back to the hotel and Zzzzzzz...

SURAT POS FROM SWEETIE PIE

2011-07-26T19:04:00.003+08:00

7 days my baby in Mecca. And I received his 2 pages written letter. This morning when I want to go to work, Mr Postman came to the mailbox and put a letter inside it. And I directly went to the mailbox and see the letter. Surprisingly the letter is for me. I brought it into my car and slowly open it and read. Hahaha I was so damn happy when I see the handwriting for I was so familiar with it. I read through the letter and all the sweetest words came out. Owh he's so damn sweet. He'd made my day. Im so so damn happy. How I miss him so terribly. Since 2008 (where our kinship begin) we never been this apart and this one I have to respect the short term separation without making any telephone calls. Can I say that way? But at least he wrote me a letter. Thank you for being a good partner baby. You know that you're the sweetest guy on earth? I love you much baby. Hope to see you soon. Cant wait to see you! muah muah muah. And Happy Ramadhan sayangness. My prayer will always be with you.

WHEN A MAN DOES WOMAN'S JOB

2011-07-25T15:31:00.004+08:00

Hahahaha gelak guling-guling after mendengar cerita colleague tempat kerja apabila dia bercerita about her loving and caring husband. Okla let me share a little bit about the funny story tu. My colleague last week was not feeling well. Demam teruk. So kesimpulannya tak larat la nak buat kerja apa-apa pun. My colleague ni ada 3 orang anak. But dia and husband dia are still young (kahwin awal). Si hubby tu sangat caring. Semua urusan rumah semua dia nak buat just because of his wife tengah demam. alololololo sweet kan. Tapi he didnt cook for his kids la. Beli bungkus kat kedai. Yang funny part nya. Dia semangat basuh baju, sidai baju, etc... Keesokan harinya the wife still sakit ni but tolong la sikit-sikit buat kerja rumah. Tiba-tiba masa lipat baju she smells something weird dekat clothes sume tu. Hahaha then she called her hubby from home "Abang letak sabun pencuci baju yang mana dekat baju-baju yang basuh semalam? Kenapa bau dia pelik bukan macam sabun yang saya guna?" then si husband menjawab. "Pakai sabun basuh yang awak selalu pakai la. Yang awak letak kat tepi mesin basuh tu" si wife dah mula pelik. Banyak je botol2 kat tepi mesin basuh tu. Dia tanya kembali."Brand yang mana yang abang pakai ni" pastu dengan selamba badak si hubby jawab "Alaaa yang Fabuloso ade bunga-bunga kat depan tu" terus si wife gelak guling-guling. Hahahahaha...sumpah comel. Si husband balik rumah terus merajuk. Sumpah kelakar. aku yang dengar ni pon gelak guling-guling. Kadang-kadang laki ni suka ambil mudah. Kan senang baca je dulu kenapa la nak main tuang je dalam mesin basuh tu kan.. Tapi at least die ade inisiatif nak tolong wife ni. Thumb's up!

BEEN ATTACKED AGAIN

2011-07-22T13:53:00.004+08:00

Last night I went to Carrefour to buy some stuffs for my corporate office. I spent 2hours on the shopping part. Haha until they made the annoucement for the closing session, then I realized that I've been there for almost 2 hours. WTH kan? Suddenly came this one guy and gave his favour to find other things in the list that I didnt take yet. Actually I was planning to see him after my shopping part settled but he came by and helped. shocked! I didnt ask for any helps but he were there to help and I was afraid if he considered that as 'being used' or 'being played' by me! Ok nevermind. Keep it into your head and heart Zalikha. He'll be going to have a big competition tomorrow so I guess I dont need to burst it out on the spot. Well the decision changed suddenly after the shopping part done. Without any delay, I asked him the sentence that he typed on his FB status. Gosh! my pride. my dignity. You thought all this while you've been played, you've been fooled, you've been used by me? And you mentioned that on your wall? Errrkkk you seriously pissed me off! I cried out loud after we had our disastrous arguments/fought! Later I drove my car out of that building and drove-to-no-where. And suddenly I cant breathe. something wrong with the lung! The rhythm of my breathe was totally change. STUCKED. So eff-ing painful! I directly dialed my friend's number and asked him to send me to the hospital. I stopped by my car at petrol station and my friend fetched me there. He stopped me at the emergency session and the person in charge of registration asked me to just go in without doing the registration part. The doctor examined me and gave me the 'Neb' machine to help me breathing well. After half and hour, the rhythm went well but my whole body was shaking (shiverring) due to the medicine that the doctor put in that machine. I went off at 2am and had my not-so-good-night sleep.

OK la dah banyak sangat mengarut ni. Sangat busy ni. Selamba boss kat depan and aku tulis blog time meeting hahahaha. No offence ok. and thank you for reading this entry

JODOH RAHSIA ALLAH

2011-07-22T13:47:00.004+08:00

Jodoh adalah rahsia Allah SWT yang tidak bisa disingkap oleh insan melainkan dengan kudrat-NYA. Jadi janganlah percaya kata-kata orang yang kononnya mempunyai azimat boleh menilik nasib seseorang manusia itu berkahwin dengan siapa. Ingat, setiap manusia Allah jadikan mempunyai pasangan masing-masing. Jika tidak sempat bertemu jodoh mereka di dunia, akan anda temui jodoh itu di alam selepas kehidupan di bumi. Wallahualam.

JODOH RAHSIA ALLAH SWT.

BABY OFF TO MECCA

2011-07-20T16:22:00.007+08:00

Ihram

picture above - On the way to KLIA (11am)

The time now shows 430pm and I guess my baby is on the plane heading to Jeddah Airport for he's going to perform his Umrah. Departure time just now was at 3pm so he'll be arrived there around 11pm. Will be back insyaAllah another 2 weeks time. Alhamdulillah, akhirnya dapat juga menjejaki tanah suci. Pray a lot baby and take care. Dont forget to pray for me!

At KLIA before he went off to the departure station.

Farewell sayang. Have a smooth and safe journey. I love you more than you know. I'll be waiting for you to come back another 2weeks time.

LOVE.YOU.TIMES.INFINITY

HAPPY 50th MAMA

2011-07-20T16:02:00.003+08:00

Happy 50th Birthday Mama!

Its hard for me to describe how I love you mama. Thanks for being a good mama for us. Im glad to have you. Eventhough our life is not as perfect as others, but Im truly happy that I was born as your daughter. Hope you'll enjoy on your wonderful day. And 50th is just a number. Nothing to worry about. You're still look younger than your age.

SO MUCH LOVE MAMA

ESOK = HAPPY / SEDIH

2011-07-19T11:09:00.002+08:00

Esok 20th July 2011.

Tak tahu nak cakap esok ni hari happy or hari sedih tapi yang penting perasaan dan feeling sekarang adalah sangat sangat sangat super sedih!

Hopefully semuanya akan selamat.

Amin.

Mama, ILY

Baby, ILY2

SUSUK

2011-07-19T10:59:00.003+08:00

Cerita pasal susuk, kelmarin ada seorang mengatakan saya memakai susuk. Ok dia adalah orang yang ke-4 mengatakan sedemikian. Astagfirullahal'azhim... Entah macam mana mereka melihat diri ini pun aku tidak tahu. Tapi beliau mengatakan beliau boleh melihat seseorang itu memakai susuk atau tidak. Sumpah, demi nama Allah SWT aku tidak pernah membuat perbuatan itu. Beliau mengatakan susuk tidak semestinya dipakai sendiri, atau sendiri akan tahu dia memakainya, akan tetapi ada yang susuk di turun temurun kan oleh nenek moyang generasi masa dulu. Owh boleh ye macam tu. Tak pernah dengar pulak. OK takpe. Jom tanya dengan mama. Mama mengatakan dia juga ditegur oleh beberapa orang bahawa dia mempunyai susuk. Mama juga terkejut. Tapi mama sudah bertanyakan beberapa orang ustaz yang lebih arif. Ustaz tersebut menyatakan bahawa darah keturunan mama adalah orang yang cukup diminati. Patutlah semua ahli keluarga besar belah mama sangat diminati. Lagi-lagi adik beradik mama sendiri. Ermm hahaha muka aku berkilat-kilat ini lah yang kau katakan memakai susuk. Hehehe. Aku sudah temui jawapannya. Jadi aku tidak khuatir dan takut menerima sebarang tohmahan selepas ini. Ececececeh. (mama>kadang-kadang maksud nama seseorang itu pun boleh diambil kira)

TIDAK FAHAM

2011-07-15T11:34:00.003+08:00

Memang betul-betul tak faham dengan perangai lelaki. Lagi-lagi perangai laki yang kuat ego dan terlalu emosi. Kadang-kadang pening kepala ni nak fikirkan tapi kadang-kadang kelakar juga. Unik sebenarnya insan yang bergelar lelaki ni. Tapi lain pula cerita dengan seorang mamat ni. Haissshhh. Maybe tak pernah tulis pasal dia kat blog ini tapi entri ini sengaja ditulis khas untuk sang teruna tersebut. Pernah bekerja di tempat yang sama suatu ketika dahulu. Perwatakan errrmmm penyayang, ambil berat terhadap orang sekeliling, sangat menghormati orang tua, peramah, manis, tidak pandai menipu, hati yang lembut seperti sutera, etc. Jatuh hati pandang pertama itu perkara normal bagi lelaki. Tetapi sejauh mana ia akan pergi? Semakin jauh ia pergi semakin kuat perasaan sayang itu gamaknya. Itu yang pernah terungkap di mulut lelaki tersebut. Hanya mampu berkata "Just go with the flow, kita tidak tahu dengan siapa jodoh kita. Jodoh manusia adalah rahsia Allah SWT". Jadi tidak salah untuk mengeratkan silaturrahim sebagai rakan karib. Lama kelamaan jiwa itu tidak tenteram. Jiwa itu memberontak. Jiwa itu terseksa. Apakan daya. Aku manusia biasa. Tidak mempunyai kuasa untuk mengetahui siapa yang akan aku bersama kelak. Perpisahan adalah jalan penyelesaian? Tetapi bila perpisahan itu terjadi, rindu akan menjadi semakin berbuak-buak, itu yang seringkali terungkap olehnya. Aku cuma menghormati segala keputusan yang diputuskan. Bagiku, membina ikatan persahabatan bersamanya begitu indah. Thank you Allah diatas kinship ini.

p/s : Dear 'that-person', Tidak perlu nak beremosi sangat dengan I ok. hehehe. No offence. Tapi I miss you la kalau you're not around. uwaaaaa jangan la nak end up our friendship ni. Best la kawan dengan you!!!!!

NEW EMPLOYMENT AFTER CIMB BANK

2011-07-14T17:53:00.003+08:00

Hey readers! Im back and love to share with you my new story.

Im going to start with the new career soon.

Working in the new industry where at first I think I dont suit into.

Well no harm trying.

Dubaiz Group of Companies. ( A listed company )

Where it has numbers of company under it.

Dubaiz Land Berhad

Dubaiz Development Sdn Bhd (Developer)

Dubaiz Technology Sdn Bhd (Contractor)

Dubaiz Auto International Sdn Bhd

RK+A Consult Sdn Bhd (Architect)

Aerli Sdn Bhd

Wan Ahmad Mizan & Co (Advocate & Solicitor)

By the way, Ive been interviewed by the Exec Chairman

(Datuk Seri Dr Rusli bin Hj Zaman)

and Datuk Seri asked me to work as his Business Manager.

HAPPY WORKING ZECCA!

Pray for me guys!

Career development. Career development.

hehehehe.

ERRKKKKK

2011-07-12T14:56:00.002+08:00

IM FAT NOW

TAHI! eh TAHNIAH!

36D

...still love my curves

(saying this just to make myself relief)

MOHAWK HAIR

2011-07-12T12:06:00.002+08:00

This is the look that I am truly miss!

But he just cut his hair short!

No, not short. Its almost BALD.

Nevermind sayang. You're still my charming man!

You still look great with you new hair style.

MOHAWK konon....!!! ceh!

8 days to go! Uwaaaaa

ME LOVE YOU

...

HE WAS IN KL FOR 2 DAYS

2011-07-11T16:18:00.002+08:00

...and I was so damn happy when he was here even for 2 days only

We went to Mid Valley and The Garden.

SHOPPING!

LAST DAY AS A RELATIONSHIP MANAGER

2011-07-07T17:48:00.002+08:00

This entry is all about me as a Relationship Manager for CIMB Bank as for today is my last day working with this company (7th July 2011). I went to the CIMB Head Office at noon time for my boss and the team members threw a farewell lunch for me at Krathong Thai Restaurant at Sogo shopping mall. I tendered my resignation letter last week as the HR personnel said that I have to give at least 1 week notice and last Monday I received an email from HR department and they've approved my 1 week notice with 2days annual leave. huhuhu. So sad but this is what I want. Better offer from other company plus better income too. Hehehe. You know how hard for me to say goodbye to my team eventhough there are 8 of them but I feel really contented when Im working with them. Eventhough we serve different branches but almost every week we will have our coaching and meeting session with our boss at MBC. Urgghhh this is hard for me. Seriously. The lunch went well. Very well. We were at the restaurant almost 3hours! makan-makan. chit-chat. hahaha. Then went back to MBC for the meeting session. But I came into the meeting room later for I need to return back the company iphone and need to fill few forms. Then I entered the room. Hahahaha. But this time I entered with an empty head and my team members realized that too. Yelaaa I dont have to think no more on the new products, new campaigns, new systems, yadda yadda and KPI especially! hahaha but my tears dropped when I hug my boss uwaaaaaa so sad! She's so nice! Very supportive. 2 times she countered me back but I didnt considered it at all. huhuhu. I know how hard she interviewed people and the hardest part is to select the cream of the cream! hurmmmm thanks a lot boss for giving me the chance to learn and gain experience with CIMB. Really appreciate it. To my team members, all the best and do keep in touch! Uwaaaaaaa!!!!!!! Gonna miss the moments with you guys! muah muah! To boss, im sorry for everything and do keep in touch too! SO LONG AND FAREWELL CIMB BANK!

PEACE DOES NOT MEAN BERSIH 2.0

2011-07-06T12:22:00.006+08:00

I, myself force for a peaceful country. I've been around the world for several times and always looking forward to return back to my beloved country, Malaysia. My home sweet home ever! By the way Malaysia is not as crappy as the people around make it sound. If they think Malaysia is shitty, ask them to go elsewhere! So they will know how terrible and horrible living in other Muslim's developing countries. Full of discrimination! Full of prejudice! And such... So if you people want to protest with your shitty jerk demonstration, don't let other public's like myself in trouble/annoyance! I want my weekend to be great walking freedomly and peacefully at the busy city road! Common muslims! We are in Syaaban's month! We suppose do good things during this month rather than messing around at my beloved city! Anyhow do you really know who is the leader behind the scene for the BERSIH 2.0 demonstration? Let me tell you the truth here!

Ambiga Sreenevasan

1. HINDU

2. ANTI ISLAM

3. Apostate Patron (Penyokong Murtad)

4. A lawyer for Lina Joy's case (a women who wanted to convert her religion from a Muslim to Christianity)

5. Recommended the quarrel on the power of Syariah Court that involved the religion converting which is from non-muslim convert to muslim

6. Supporter/Booster for IFC (Inter Faith Comission) yang pernah menyatakan penceraian dalam islam adalah ZALIM dan sangat menyokong PLURALISME AGAMA

7. Volunteer/Free service for those muslim yang nak convert to other religion if the case is under federal court of justice

And too bad, this is the leader that PAS and PKR are too glorify to, whereby konon-kononnya to struggle or fight for islam! CRAP! BULLSHIT! How can non-muslim leads the muslim people on muslim's country? Remember you people, orang bukan islam hanya ingin menyesatkan orang-orang islam. That are their oath since forever! And for a start, they want to see the PARTIALITY of us by doing this shitty-crappy demonstration!

PARANOID

2011-07-05T17:42:00.002+08:00

Hand's up! Oppss you're not Mr or Mrs police so why should I put my hand's up? Don't put all the culpability on me. I'm innocent. You should scrutiny/investigate things first before you make any actions or decisions. Never trust anyone especially the person who is really close to you. Don't be so donkey. I did nothing so just throw away your 'too-extremely-fearful' attitude. Or else I can say here. One word. You, PARANOID! I'm sorry for that. You're too obsessed! My dear Paranoid people, stop being one.

Me. Don't hate you and NEVER.

WHAT A CONFESSION?

2011-06-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG OMG. I dont know how to start this. Hahaha. Ok this entry is specifically about my ex-boo. BOOOO!!!! (really mean it) hahaha. We just keep in touch after awhile he deleted me from his facebook and other social networks. hahaha boooo him again. Then after he bought his BB, and saw him on the samura's group, we started our awkward conversation thru BBM. He said that last time he deleted me because of the full of being hatred. WTH? hahaha well I dont have any rights to stop anyone's feeling. He said lets start with new friendship without having any heart feeling and I dealt with it. And again, we met on last 3weeks at Petronas station in Setiawangsa. I was about to fill in the gas on chubby's and saw him parked his vehicle beside mine. The awkward moment happened again. Like a first time met actions. muahahaha. OK enough on that part.

Last 2weeks I went to my friend's wedding reception at Ampang area and of course he was there too. Like obviously he stared at me and munk saw that. Not only munk, others also saw that. hahaha ok then we went to bowling session. Hahaha with baju kurung. I thought he went back home straight away but a bit shocked when saw him there tooo.. Ok he tried to make the conversation and I was avoiding it. Hahaha feel so weird la after not talking to each other for quite some time and suddenly he did that in front of others. hohohoho. Later we BBM and he said why was I so sombong during the wedding reception and also on the bowling session but when it comes to BBM, I can simply chit chat with him. Hahaha. No comment!

Ok what a confession? yesterday I was hanging around at mamak restaurant after my working hour. My big brother asked me to lepak2 myself with his other brothers. So i went there and as i arrived at that mamak, i saw him again... jeng jeng jeng. And again he stared at me. I saw it this time. KANTOI! Well suddenly he called my name and I asked what? he said nothing. Just quite a long time didnt mentioned my name. hahaha funny you. Ermmm I was more chit-chating with my big brother and of course im so friendly with my abang. Later during midnight after we went back home, he texted me through BBM. He confessed that he still have feelings towards me. He's so jealous whenever I talk with any guys, whenever I shake hands with guys, whenever I take care on my guys friends. OMG! Its over for quite a long time (3 years over). Thought of you're moving on but somehow he still have the feelings. Hurrmm I just dont know how. I talked about this to several people that I close to. They said that He still have the feelings towards me. Another friend said that He wanted to psycho my mind as he wants me to beg him back. Owh how how how. I sincirely want to be friend with him. Not more than that. Ermmm of course you cant erase your memory (either good or bad) with the one you call your first love. Well CHANGE is one of the law of living. Ermmm yes i still miss you but the feeling....arggghh i dont want to talk about that. I love my boyfriend now. He really cares about me. He appreciates me every single things i do. He is so kind far away kind compared to my ex. oopppssss i didnt mean to make a comparison here but im happy with my life now. BTW thank you for your confession. If you're still jealous, that means you're still in love me. Am I right? Ermmm well I suggest you to do Istiqarah for your own good ok. Sorry for this entry.

HARI BAK!

2011-06-21T23:40:00.002+08:00

Last weekend adalah HARI BAK (dad's day)

Tapi this year tak celebrate sebab bak dah takde.

Sumpah sedih.

Sumpah terasa sangat kehilangan.

Went to his grave on saturday evening.

Hanya boleh melawat pusara untuk wish BAK's DAY.

BAK. I MISS YOU!

Sangat sangat sangat terasa lonely without you BAK.

Dah takde orang yang nak call gayut hari-hari.

Takde orang yang boleh gayut tepon and lawan suara sape lagi kuat.

Takde orang nak marah-marah suruh balik and kurangkan social activity.

BAKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!

RIIIIINNNNDDDUUUU!!!

USAH BERDENDAM LAGI

2011-06-07T18:35:00.002+08:00

Kenapa perlu berdendam? past is past kan. If saya salah, maafkanlah saya. Confront la saya kalau ada yang tak puas hati? Kita memang tiada jodoh nak bersama. Awak tak boleh lah nak salahkan saya. Kalau kita masih bersama pun, awak rasa kita akan happy macam mana kita happy sekarang? Saya tahu awak happy dengan life awak. Same goes to me. Saya happy sangat sangat dengan life saya sekarang. Kalau dengan awak dulu hari hari pun gaduh. Setiap bulan pun nak break up. Saya tahu itu zaman puppy love. hahaha tapi jangan lah terlalu ambil benda tu serious sampai nak berdendam dendam. Berdendam akan jadi hati itu hitam, hati itu kotor, hati itu mati. Buat segala benda pun susah nak dapat keberkatan. I know its easy to forgive but its hard to forget. Saya juga mengalami benda yang sama. Tapi just rileks. Chill. Cool down. Tidak perlu lah nak bermuka muka. Depan saya ok. Tapi hati awak tak ok. Saya dah tak tahu dah nak buat macam mana. Awak tak boleh blame saya sorang. Kena la face benda ni sama2 sebab sama2 yang created benda ni kan. Pasrah. Redha. Itu yang terbaik. Hanya satu je saya minta dari awak, usahlah berdendam lagi. Lupakan kisah kisah lalu ok. Anggap itu hanya satu pengalaman hidup. Untuk awak ubah jadi better person. Untuk awak lebih sensitif dengan hati dan perasaan perempuan. No offence k. Kita kawan...!! heeheehee....

BACK IN 2007

2011-06-01T00:01:00.004+08:00

Hahaha. Just found out this picture of mine. Back in the year of 2007.
With my long straight hair.
My room was so untidy (so just ignore the background)
How I look so different with the long hair.
Short hair looks extra young. So chill bebeh!
xoxoxoxox

FIRDAUS IS NOT ADNAN

2011-05-31T21:55:00.002+08:00

Hohoho... Mohd Firdaus is not Tengku Adnan. I heard some rumors here and there talking about my boyfriend came from the royal blood and status background. OMG! Hahaha Tengku Adnan is my past. Few friends of mine knew about that royal blood. Hahaha. Mohd Firdaus came from an ordinary family background whose has a very gentle heart, sweet attitude and very down to earth person. OK. I hope this is clear enough to tell especially for my Samurian's friends. Again Tengku Adnan is my past. hehehe and Im still with my baby. I dont have any twitter account. So if you found one with my name and my picture, do ignore it. I just so lazy to make a police report of those people who are trying to be me. They are so psycho! oopppssss ok till here and welcome JUNE and farewell MAY.

2011-05-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

Last 2 weeks during weekend I went to my archery session with samurians (munk, nori and cha’ah). Ok that was according to my plan. Haha I told them that I need a different activity so I planned to have my archery session with them. Hahaha they just followed my plan for they also don’t have anything in mind. So I promised to see them at Times Square at 11am. But everybody knows that I hate waking up early in the morning during weekends but actually I have other problem during that morning so I texted munk to change the time so I went to fetch her at 1pm. We met each other at Times Square at 2ish and had our lunch at Vivo restaurant but at first we planned to have our meal at the food court which situated at level 10th but as we went up there was no food courts..huhuhu poor us! But we really had a great meal at Vivo! So nevermind la. stomach full of love. Yummeh!

After the makan makan borak berak session, we went to jeng jeng jeng of course la to the place that we wanted to have our activity which was the archery place...woottt wooott Nori was so nervous because it was her first attempt but Cha’ah seemed so excited. Yuhhuuu... !!! 37 arrows and it costs us only RM18 ok! So so cheap.. but Nori and munk seemed so tired after the arrow of 20th. Haha owh so heavy that thing called BOW... We were laughing at each other. Somehow we didn’t shot the arrow on the target place. As myself I shot my arrow on cha’ah’s target board (hahaha). It took us almost 30minutes to finish our 37 arrows hahaha but it was so fun and i felt really contented! Later we went to Old Town White Coffee for lepak lepak session and of course we played Chong Tahiti!! Wheee...!!! Me and Cha’ah taught Nori and Munk on how to play that card..hahaha and they seemed so addicted to it nowww yabedabedduuu. Funny you people! We went home at 8pm. Hehehe a very productive Sunday! Yet exhausted and i got my backache! Huhuhu due to the archery bebeh!

LANTAK KAU...

2011-05-02T21:37:00.009+08:00

I am about to sleep now. Owh its too early so i guess i-phoning can help myself fall asleep. Ermmm ok Lantak Kau= I dont care! Why am i using that sentence as my topic for today. Haha this isnt a funny story but sometimes it tick my funny bones. Hahaha. I got lots of guys friends but this one is so unique or i can say that he is so pelik. He loves going out with me as he said that i am funny and talkative person to get along and opppsss he falls for me. Like ok thank you because you fell for me but i do have my baby and he knows that ( i dont want to be too secretive to my love one, so sharing us caring ) Very good. Well this guy loves challenges. He wants to fight for me? Ermm ok up to you because we dont know our path in the future. We can plan with whom we want to get marrief but its all up to HIM, my most merciful. Ok then he said owh are you ok be one of my special friend because from his past experience he went out with numbers of girls but somehow after the day that he went out, those girls never turned up, totally lost contact. I said well dont you ever compare me with those girls cause for my side, once i know my friends i wont ever take the steps of leaving. I love all my friends of course...

After he fell so hard for me, he suddenly changed his mind. He deleted me. Ok fine i understand i do respect your decision but i feel a bit sad of losing someone that i used to be closed with before. What to do. People have their own choices, their own rights. Ermmm then after that he apologised for deleted me and asked me to accept him back as a good friend. Ok. He promised not to repeat this again. Unfortunately, people are good in giving words. What do you aspect? I have my own life as well. I have my own privacy too. I do have a very caring romantic loving boyfriend and you shouldnt get jealous of my happy relationship. You'd supposed give me advices and uplifting words to strengthen my bond with partner not the other way round. That day you called me and i was with my boo. You shouldnt get jealous of it. And you went deleting me from your bbm and facebook and this time i asked you nicely but your answers was like owhhhhh so harshy harsh and should i say that i am regret of knowing someone like you but no! Cannot i cannot feel that way. There must be reasons why allah sent you to me. Thank you for all the favors dude. Really appreciate it. But this time i am too lazy to beg you for not throwing this friendship. Its all up to you. LANTAK KAU. Excuse my french. But people have their limits of being so patient and so do I.

Sorry if i did anything wrong. I just cant take it anymore. Youre being so harsh lately. Huhu im sorry of this entry. Really really sorry. I dont know to whom i should talk about this matter... And sorry if there's any spelling or grammatical error. Im using i-phone and so so damn sleepy right now. Thanks for your time guys!

CANT WAIT FOR MY NEXT HOLIDAYS....

2011-04-27T18:29:00.001+08:00

Yeay yeay yeay yeay yeay

I want to go to the MOON!

hahahahahaha

RESEARCH ACCEPTED!

2011-04-27T18:16:00.003+08:00

When I first entered this room, I feel like WTH with this room? How am I going to present my slides. Then Dr Kuppu said this is the way the masters and pHD students present their whatever thesis, dissertation and whatnot. OMG. With the desk microphone and you have to present while sitting haha funny. Each place/seat have a desk microphone so anytime the pHd students and the panels which are the lecturers can interrupt during the presentation time. This is cool man! I was so confident! Seriously. I dont feel that I was prepared enough but maybe I love public speaking kot! Hahaha. Well, they dont give any comments and feedbacks for my study for my focus is going to be on the new policy which has just been launched last march by our prime minister. So they dont have the idea yet. New hot topic but it will be hard for me to get the literature part especially for the past finding. Well nothing is impossible right. What you need is POSITIVE THINKING! Yeeehhhaaaaa... Gonna submit my dissertation insyaallah on January 2012. Aminnnn....
START WORKING ZALIKHA!

1st EXAM PAPER 2011

2011-04-26T19:14:00.002+08:00

POLICY ANALYSIS AND PROGRAMME EVALUATION

Owh well, I just took my first final exam paper for this year. As I entered my new semester this year, I've already knew that I have to take this course for its a core subject. Eventhough from my early resgistration for my masters programme last year, I've already blocked (say no to it) this course for it's sound so terrible and the lecturer looks like so fierce. OMG hahaha. Well this is my first entry on the masters exam question. Why this one? Because I want to reminiscence it until my dying day (WTF?!) Hahaha. I hate the exam question so bad! Really hate it! It was so critical thinking. And 2 hours is not the good period of time for me to answer those questions!

1. Discuss the bureucratic web relationships of East Asian developmental states (15m)

2. In reconstructing the developmental state and engaging institutional adaption and innovation to achieve long term goals, discuss some feasible functions that a state must perform (15m)

3. Do you agree that policy-making is viewed as a political process above all other considerations rather than a narrowly technical nature? (15m)

4. Discuss in detail particular approaches to policy analysis, specify the relevant evaluation criteria and where appropriate in facilitating policy alternatives. (15m)

5. Compare two countries of developmental state in terms of industrialization and its performance of public sector strategic planning. (15m)

Owh. I really sent rubbish this time. Sorry DR Beh. I wasnt prepare for your paper. I should read more and more articles and journals on other countries for the developmental state side. I was only focusing on the Japan and South Korea part. Well I hope that you can give me at least B (pass score) for your paper. Uwaaaaaaaaaaaa..... I want to finish my masters on time! if not, i have to pay the fees by my own.

REMINDER = AGAIN!

2011-04-21T04:52:00.003+08:00

This picture above really catched my attention.

Was browsing the Tumblr just now hahaha. Really cool picture isnt it?

By the way, I've already posted an entry about how I SERIOUSLY hate smokers!

hahaha. I think it was last year!

And it is so true that smoking its not so cute.

Plus I dont see the macho-smart character when a guy smoke with their arrogant way.

I feel like they are all donkey with those cigarattes. hahaha

ooopppssss excuse my french.

HOPE AND HURT

2011-04-19T21:26:00.002+08:00

What is HOPE? Hope is the belief that circumstances in the future will be better. It's not a wish that things will get better, but an actual belief, even when there may be no evidence that anything will change. I am just an ordinary girl. Living in this hussle bustle city. Meeting numbers of blokes like you! Ermm I am kind of friendly person. However to get really close to someone, to let myself trust to a person, it takes time. If let say I do comfort telling you this and that about myself, thats mean I trust you! And I feel the connection between us. But I hate giving people hope as well as I hate people giving me hope indeed. So? What is that? Argghhh I dont know how to make any action on that. I just go with the flow. But if you feel that I am giving you hope, I am really sorry. It just that I dont want you to get hurt. Understand me? Erm, its ok. You can confront me anytime you want. I always ready with this kind of situation. Because I believe in Allah. HE have already planned something for me. It just me to take it or leave it. JUST GO WITH THE FLOW. (By the way, what the heck im writing this? Super-SHIT. I got tonne of works to do! Study Zalikha! Go and work smart for your final exam!) hahaha.

LATEST ME

2011-04-16T23:29:00.002+08:00

Ok. This picture I took during the Market Outlook's event at Sime Darby Convention Centre this morning. The hall was fucking chill so I decided to hang around in the washroom for awhile and I did my personal job as well (I dont have to tell what kan?) hahaha. Bunguk! Semua pun nak bagitahu, tak privacy la macam ni. hahaha (like I always mention this sentence!) sounds adorable. Owh sangat perasan angkat bakul naik lif! Hahaha.. hey right now Im at Mc Donald with my love one. Doing my assignments and research powerpoint that I have to present by next week. What a hectic month! The final exam is just around the corner. And my exam leave doesnt approve yet by my big bos. Owh so scared!!! Its ok..now need to focus on the assignments and research paper so I can concentrate on my readings for the final exam. Chaiyok Zecca. Eventhough I got no time, but still writing this entry for I need those ideas to write on my research hahaha funny me! Sometimes I entertain myself playing the RIO ANGRY BIRD games on my iphone. hahaha. release my tense too bits! apakah? hahahaha...

Oklaa I think I should type off now before my budak kecik find out Im blogging sekarang ni. hahaha Nanti kena marah! hahaha. Next month numbers of bestie getting married! shit shit shit. Kena prepare cashnotes to buy them pressieeeee!!! And need to plan for myself >>>VACAY!!!!!!! Yahooooooooooooooooo.

WE ARE BOTH YOUNG

2011-04-16T23:13:00.002+08:00

My awesome-handsome baby is growing up, matured! OMG but I still feel like he is still young. NO WAY! We are both young! hahaha. Seeing his eye-bagged really makes me sad. He's struggling for his masters so hard for he wants to get married asap. BUNGUK! You're planning to do your PhD and hopefully you can propose me before we fly abroad (according to our plan la) But I hate planning! Because.......hmmmmm shouldnt tell it here. hahahha. Well I really love this hot guy next to me. hahaha. SERIOUSLY!

APRIL?

2011-04-10T17:55:00.002+08:00

OMG. The time is moving so fast. Today is already 10th of April. Its been awhile I didnt tidy up my blog hahaha. What a month! fuhhh... Well firstly, I felt so sorry for those yang terkena my prank during the APRILFOOL hahaha especially my budak kecik! and not to forget to Mr Ashraf. Fainted in the car and he was so panicked and konon-konon nak ke hospital. Hahaha. APRILFOOL! Pity you dude! Ok this month can also say as the bongok month because uwaaaa lots of assignments, plus my research paper as well. Then with my final exam summore! shooottt!!! Got no time to study... Abnother 14 days left. MANA SEMPAT NAK BACA WEHHHH!!!!! especially subject policy! I seriously hate that subject! susah nak mampos! Well nak buat macam mana kan. have to face it jugak la. Dengan kerja lagi. Dapat RD baru lagi. KPi...TARGET of the MONTH!!!! uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... nasib baik ada budak kecik...banyak jugak la die tolong sekarang ni...huhuhuhu...ok dah dah...continue buat SPSS ni...bye! thanks for reading this stupid entry hahaha...

SHA MUNK = SUKU ABAD?

2011-03-24T00:31:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY MUNK!

Dont worry.
25 is just a number.
hehe. Munk dearest
I will always pray for your good health, wealth, happiness,
and the most important thing is
Im gonna pray that you 'll get married asap (this year perhaps)

I LOVE YOU FOREVER!

TRAINING & COURSES

2011-03-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

Owh. I am so donkey busy! Yes seriously I am. Now I am at Bangi (CIMB Akedemi Putra) for 10 days training. The place is quite nice. The hostel looks like a service apartment. The housekeeping is the one who will tidy up the room when I go for my daily courses. Today is my 4th day in this training centre. I feel so fatigue, exhausted, tired and whatnot! the session begins as early as 830am and ends at 6pm. And all courses provide you a quiz, test, exam and etc... And you just cannot fail it but if you are, you have to re-seat it again which is going to be another 3-4 weeks from now and you cannot sell those product that you're failed. hahaha. Im going insane now. Facing UM's assignments, research, and presentation and at the same time need to study on the products which are a lot!

Im so busy lately especially this month (MARCH) but I still have my baby who always there for me when I need him the most. Always giving me support. Always blows those spirit words for me to stand alive in the hassle city with tonne of commitments. Owh thanks darling. how I need you here beside me now. hahaha. Ok I dont have to waste my time mumbling this junkies. So long....farewell. Will update my blog when im freeeeeeeeeeeee. Thanks for your visits. (",)

BOLLYWOOD NIGHT AT GRAND SEASON KL

2011-02-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

At the hotel...preparing myself...

Bollywood Night at Grand Season Hotel Kuala Lumpur
I wore saree given by Agkillah Maniam (birthday gift-last year)
Hahaha my first time wearing saree and me so so excited!
Thanks to Agkillah, you know how to play with colours!
I love the bangles tooooooo....!!!
Seriously so adorable!
The event started at 9pm.
I performed a bolly-dance song titled Chap Dhoom Dhoom
(Imitate the dance-steps from Dil To Pagal Hai movie)
The person who captured my photo during my dancing time pun tak dapat di kesan.
I so want that picture!
Well well well
The night was so-super-happening!

Guess who's next to me! haha seriously he's a lady! you go Muhai!
The Emcee of the night!

Hahaha. Nita asked me to snap our pic in front of a mirror in the washroom.

Event ended at 1230am. Hahahaha. Nice one!
Hopefully the theme for next year = Artist Duplicate/Photostat/Imitate...
I wanna dress like late MJ....hehehehe